Why was I so hard to love?

rewind

Hi, I know this is weird but we met once
you used to like how bouncy my hair was
and every Thursday we would dance
with every song we'd have a blast

I know it's weird because last time we spoke
It wasn't as nice as those events I just described
Remember how you left me through a message?
Remember all the pain that simple message brought?

Probably not because I decided to pretend it didn't hurt
I simply wished you the best
because of the hope that we would meet again
just as we're speaking right now

I know you didn't mean to hurt me
At least that person who sent that message
didn't seem like the same guy who said I was the sweetest
and the guy who would come out of his way just to see me smile

I still don't know what went wrong
You told me you loved me
and in an instant
just like that, you were gone

Nowadays i'm still confused about what happened
and I was wondering if we could meet once again
because I can't deny I miss when I was your favorite
and the moments we vibed without thinking about tomorrow

So, hello, I know this may be weird
because I know you are an introvert
but I hope you can give me the chance
to meet you once again

You can accept my request by pressing rewind
and erasing the pain you caused
while replacing it with new sights
of the places we can visit
where we can kiss while the world takes a pause

That's the only pause I want in my life
the feeling of my heart stopping because i'm staring at your eyes
not the pause my heart felt at the moment I read your text

Sadly this is a monologue created by my head
and I don't think i'll have the courage to press rewind
Eventually I will forgive you and I will let you go
you will simply turn into a stranger
who once brought danger to my stability.