I see that you have gone on with your life
But I can't seem to continue with mine
The memories of you and I are still there
The dreams I have feel so real
When I wake up, reality feels like a nightmare
The thought of not having you shatters my soul
What hurts me the most is that you moved on
While I still daydream about how I used to play with your hair
and still wonder how you're doing
I still think about how could've the years gone by
If you would've stayed by my side
Forever is a long time, but that is what I hoped for us
Sadly, I can't get you back
I will never forget those last words
The moment you gave up on me
The moment you gave up on us
The moment you gave up on our future
I remember saying that I hoped the thought of us kissing
Would never bring you sorrow
But only a few weeks went by
For you to proceed to say good bye
That is why you should never fall in love with a friend
Because loosing you romantically hurts
But the thought of loosing you as a friend
Makes the pain even worse
I wish it was all a lie
But it has already been a week since you called quits
and you never responded my text
You look so happy now
I thought my company was bringing you joy
But my intensity is scary
A friend once told me that as a girlfriend I give a lot
and maybe that's the problem
I don't only give a glimpse of my company
I give my whole heart
I give my whole soul
Just as if I was signing a deal with the devil
and just like that, I end up without nothing
Slowly I have to grow my heart back
And the memories of you and I
See them as what they are
Memories
and that thought destroys my chest because
I still love you.
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Why was I so hard to love?
PuisiA collection of poems through the thoughts of a mentally ill mind