Why was I so hard to love?

changing the equation doesn't change the results

maybe you didn't said yours forever
maybe you keep claiming you don't know what you want
but the way you touched my body that day claimed otherwise
you treat me like i'm everything to you
but in the end you don't even know if I am what you want

why am i so hard to love?
the balance i must find
sometimes i'm too selfish and it doesn't workout
but when i change to receive different results, i receive the same
an unmendable broken heart