Why was I so hard to love?

Phoenix

You were the light that guided me to the dark
and then you left
I thought that you shined like the moon
but you are just a steep
steep blackhole

Slowly breathing, because it hurts when
I remember the times we locked lips
The thought of us getting older, buying
a house and thinking you were mine
were all a lie

I thought I found my missing puzzle piece
but the only puzzle missing
was my self love

While i felt heavy you just left
you put all that weight in my shoulders

I thought i was a leaf
i thought i was part of your tree
But i belong in no one's tree
in fact i'm not a leaf
i'm a Phoenix
a Phoenix who rised

A broken bird
turned into ashes who reborned
Now i'm truly free
without being anyone's leaf
which is how
you made me feel

It all began with manipulation which I thought
That wouldn't hurt
When all this time I thought our relationship was about living, loving and growing
you removed me at my worse
you unthreaded my heart
but i fixed my stitches

The girl you thought that was a leaf
is in a better place
she is no one's tree nor is a leaf

This girl is a Phoenix
She is on fire
and she is
rising