Regrets!! 2 (Jungkook X Reader)

🌷CHAPTER~11

Y/N'S POV:-

I-Is he referring to me? I locked my eyes with him, I wanted to look away but I couldn't, it feels like my eyes were stuck in his enchanting dark eyes. What is wrong with me.. Please don't fall for his charm again.. Y/n Fuckin control yourself.. 

"Had a perfect picture in my head
With you in the most beautiful dress
I look happy as ever How did I let u go again"~~

T-The lyrics.. Is that really for me??

....."Really wish there was a way
To do it all over and erase
All the beautiful memories Now it's just killing me, O baby~~...

I didn't even realize that I'm crying at this point... I can't fall for you again Jeon Jungkook.. Please don't do this to me.

~~..."Hate that you're gone
I hate all my flaws
Hate that you love someone else

Hate everything Just hate everything Right now"...~~

I can't take this anymore, my heart hurts like hell.. I need to get out of here. I ran outside aimlessly away from the crowd, I just need to get away from him.. he can't know that I still haven't forgotten about him.. I thought I'd moved on..... Why did you love him so much you idiot Y/n!!

"Y/N! Y/N!! STOP!" Eric call my name but I ignored it.. I know I'm acting and looking like a crybaby right now... I tried.. I really tried my best to hide my feelings, especially in front of him but... I-I can't anymore... a-and I'm afraid that I might show it in front of him.... WHY do I always feel weak in front of him!! I HATE IT.. I FUCKIN DID!

"Y/n Stop please.." Eric ran after me gasping for air "Listen to me" He grab my arm stopping me from going any further "I-I'm sorry" My words came out as a whisper from all the crying "I-I can't Eric... I can't do this anymore.." unable to control my emotions I sob out loudly not caring about my surroundings. Eric hugs me as he slowly rubs my back to calm down my violently trembling body "It's okay to cry Y/n, I know how you feel, cry as much as you want but please don't be weak.. we are here for you".

"I'm really sorry Eric.. I-I still love him like crazy.. I-I don't know what to d-do anymore..." I feel exhausted.. I hate this feeling... I hate being weak and fragile like this.... I hate that I still love him.... I hate that my heart still beats fast whenever he is around.

"You know that we are always here for you... Ela and I will always support you in any decisions you make" He exclaimed making me more emotional.. What did I do to deserve these kind souls.. They are always there for me no matter what.. I don't know how to thank them anymore... they did soo much for me..

"I love you guys so much... I promise I'll never let you guys down" I hug him tight wishing if Elaine would be here with us.. My words came out rather weak but he still nods  "We love you too Y/n, Everything will be fine, I'm here for you Y/n and I trust you" I chuckled pushing myself away from him "Now did I ruin my makeup?? Elain's gonna kill me for ruining her hard work"

"Ayy.. you look perfect" his phone rang just after that..

"Ela says she's back home" oh yeah she went to visit my parents.. I'm too scared to meet them so I avoid meeting them as much as I can.. I haven't seen them for years and I missed them like crazy but I'm too ashamed of myself.. I let them down.. I'm not a good daughter...

"Hey... you okay?" Eric brought me back to reality, I forced myself a smile... an obviously fake smile but he didn't say anything thank goodness I didn't wanna answer to any questions now.

I gather up all my courage and attend the party further. I couldn't help myself but to glance at Jungkook who is drinking non-stop with his hyungs, a dark gloomy, and creepy aura surrounds the always bright group. I wanted to ask them what happen but do I have the right to? They always helped me in the past they never did anything to hurt me... I'm so sorry guys....

The party had ended, I searched for them but couldn't find them.. worried sick I look everywhere for them but sadly had to stop, Eric reminded me that I'll ruin everything if I show my emotions.

After biting goodbyes to Mr. Kang, Eric and I proceed towards my apartment where someone (Elaine) is eagerly waiting to hear my stories.

I just closed my eyes for a second but suddenly the vehicle came to a halt making me flinch "W-WHAT HAPPEN ERIC!" I yelled in surprise. He froze completely making me more worried sick " Eric!! Stop with that expression! You are scaring me STOP IT!" 

"I-... I Think I h-hit someo-one" He whispers in terror. Without sparing any second I burst out of the car and ran toward the front and saw a person lying on the road with face down. OH MAN HOLY SHIT!!!  

"H-hello! Are y-you okay?" no response.. Don't tell me he's dead!!! "E-excuse me... Sir!!" My trembling hand slowly reaches his body and flips towards my direction to see who he is... To my biggest horror, my heart sinks to the bottom of my stomach. 

"J-Jungkook...... JUNGKOOK!!!!" I yelled shaking his body vigorously hoping he'll wake up and say that it's all just a prank.. "Please.. p-pleaseeee nooo Jungkook wake up pleaseee open your eyes... I-I can't live without you.. I'm sorry for ignoring you.. Kookieya please.." I sob my eyes out pleading for him to wake up.

"Y-y/n is that you...." a cold hand touch my wet cheek softly wiping my tears away. " Y-Yeah it's me kookie.. It's me Y/n...A-Are you awake?" with a sigh of relief I caress his cold slim cheeks.. he lost so much weight... my tears don't seem to stop falling and I just let it be. "Please don't leave me.. I missed you so much.. I'm really sorry... please give me a last chance.. at least to explain myself" He whispers in a very weak voice with a single tear rolling down his pale cheeks breaking my heart into pieces.. I nodded unable to bear the broken sight in front of me.. I give up.. You win Jeon Jungkook and I'm glad that you did.. he smiles sheepishly melting my heart instantly... What have you done to me Jeon Jungkook?

"Y/N!! (gasp) J-Jungkook!!... I-Is he o-okay? Is he d-DEAD? Oh my god Y/n what have I done... I'm so sorry Y/n, It's all my fault, I should've driven properly, I-" Eric panicked earning a chuckle from Jungkook confusing both of us.. "Stop it Eric and help me carry him instead of blabbering stupid things " I  snap back while struggling to carry the big baby that's lying weakly on the ground but Jungkook stop me "N-no please take me home... I wanna rest" with that, he slowly closed his eyes.

After so many debates with Eric, we decided to take him to his home instead.

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Guys... sooo I decided to upload every 2 chapters Sunday... Is that okay??

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