Faking Feelings (Muke)

Ch. 28 - Playing God

*Luke's P.O.V*

I'm dreaming. I have to be dreaming. This can't be fucking real. I REFUSE TO BELIVE WHAT I'VE BEEN TOLD.

Because Michael lost so much blood, he has fallen into a coma, and he might not wake up. When we got the news about Michael, all his mother & I could do was cry, and neither of us have really stopped.

We weren't aloud to see Michael today because he had been sent to the ICU, so we reluctantly left. I was in too much of a state to drive and Karen told me she would take me home and we could come get my car later.

I didn't end up going home though. "P-Please can I stay at your house tonight? I want to sleep in Mikey's bed" I had begged Karen through my tears. She said I could and I sent my mum a text to tell her I wasn't coming home tonight, I didn't tell her what had happened to Michael though.

Karen had also contacted Ashton & Calum to tell them about Michael, and she must of told them I was here and said they could come over, because not long after I had hidden myself under the sheets of Michael's bed, Ashton & Calum came rushing in.

Neither of them said a word, they just dumped their bags on the floor and climbed into bed with me. It felt weird at first, considering we aren't really all that close... And they used to bully me.

So now I have Ashton & Calum snuggled up to me, and I'm not sure who is crying more. It's been about two hours and the only time any of us have spoken was when Karen came in to ask us if we're okay with pizza for dinner in a few hours.

I'm having trouble believing Ashton & Calum are really here though, with me I mean. The two of them used to pick on me- as I said before- for being gay, which is stupid considering they are bisexual...

Dating Michael has brought Ashton, Calum, and I closer together, I never thought I would conciser them friends. It's funny how things turn out.

"He can't die" Ashton lets out a sob as he sits up quickly, the first thing I've heard him say aside from talking to Karen, "He can't!".

"Ash" Calum sniffs quietly as he too sits up. I pull myself up as well and rub my teary eyes.

"He can't die, we have to apologise to him" Ashton cries.

"What?" Calum & I both ask in confusion.

"Not you, Luke" Ashton says softly, "Calum & I".

"What did we do?!" Calum asks in hurt-confusion.

"Remember what we did to him before we became really close to him?" Ashton asks, looking around me to see Calum.

"You mean involving the sex-" Calum asks before going quiet, "I mean, the- Uhh".

"Yeah" Ashton nods shamefully.

"Oh" Calum sighs, "He knows we're sorry, we apologised a million times".

"Yeah, then we used some of it against him for a stupid dare" Ashton says through clenched teeth.

"He knew we weren't actually going to do it" Calum says quickly.

"But what if that's what triggered him into going mute again?!" Ashton asks desperately, "He was stressed about the dare and it all went wrong, we shouldn't of used those stupid pictures against him".

"Whoah" I say suddenly, feeling extremely left out of the conversation, "Can someone explain?".

The two fall silent for a moment before Ashton speaks up, "When Michael moved to our school, he just wanted to fit in and not be bullied like at him old school, but we didn't know about that".

"We obviously knew we were attracted to guys, and when we saw Michael-" Calum pauses, "Ugh, he was just so attractive".

"We were popular, but everyone thought we were straight" Ashton continues, "We befriended Michael on one condition-".

"A condition we didn't actually tell him about, might I add" Calum interjects.

"We told him we were bisexual and that we found him attractive, he was a little shocked about that, which we later found out was because no ones ever really liked him" Ashton explains, "I think that was why he let us do what we did, he thought we would start bulking him and turn the school against him".

"What did you do?!" I ask in shock. Calum & Ashton shamefully stare at their hands. "Answer me!" I demand.

"We-" Calum's lip starts to quiver, "We used him for sex".

"What?!" I ask in alarm.

"We're sorry, we really are!" Ashton cries, "But he was so vulnerable and we were so horny".

"He became our little sex toy" Calum sobs into his hands, "We took photos of him naked-".

"Which he said we could do, by the way" Ashton adds quickly before going back to crying.

"So that we could pleasure ourselves to them when he wasn't around" Calum finishes his sentence, "We did this too him for months".

"Over the months, we started to get closer to him as friends" Ashton continues, "To start off, he had been fine enough with what we were doing and sometimes he took over, wether it be because he wanted to or because he thought we wanted him to".

"Eventually he, I don't know, lost interest I guess-" Calum mumbles, "Or maybe it was the depression getting worse, but he would just lay there and take it with this vacant look on his face".

"You guys are horrible" I say in disgust, wiping tears from my eyes.

"That's when we stopped though, when he started doing that" Ashton says quickly, "We felt bad about it, so we stopped doing it and started treating him like a real friend. He started opening up to us about his past then, which made us feel even worse about what we did, but he said he didn't care".

"When we dared him to date you as a joke, which he told us he told you about, we threatened to release his nudes to the whole school" Calum tells me, "We weren't actually going to do it but I don't think he was going to test his luck, he seemed really stressed over the dare, especially when you kept turning him down".

"I didn't know" I mumble, feeling guilty.

"We don't blame you, it was our fault, not yours" Ashton says calmly, placing a hand on my arm.

"I have a question" I say somewhat randomly, "Did Michael enjoy what you were doing to him or was it-".

The three of us fall silent for a few seconds before Ashton chokes out the word "Rape" and we fall back into silence.

"We don't know for sure" Calum finally speaks up, "For all we know, he might of actually liked it, despite claiming to be straight".

"What we did to him was still wrong!" Ashton snaps in frustration, "How could we just do that to someone?!".

Ashton starts to cry again and I quickly pull him in for a hug, he snuggles up to me and I feel Calum wrap his arms around the both of us.

This is going to be a long night..