Faking Feelings (Muke)

Ch. 1 - Bad Friends

"So, we gave you the night to think about it" Ashton smirks, "Are you going to ask the freak out, or what?!".

"Why am I doing this again?" I ask in confusion.

"We dared you to" Calum reminds me. "Ask him out and string him along for as long as you can without him finding out" he explains.

"But I'm not gay" I remind them. "You guys know that" I scold them.

"It doesn't matter" Ashton shrugs.

"Whatever... But what if he says no?" I sigh.

"You have a week to get him to say yes... If he still says no... Well, that's just sad" Calum answers.

"What if I don't want to?" I challenge. They can't make me do this.

"Then your nudes are 'accidentally' going to get leaked around the school" Ashton smirks.

"Blackmail, seriously?!" I ask in annoyance. "You wouldn't do that to me!" I tell him.

"Oh, but we would... It's your fault for letting me take the photo in the first place" Ashton tells me.

I thought Ashton was my best friend... He wouldn't really do this to me... Would he?!

"What have you got to worry about, date the freak and your nudes will remain for our eyes only" Calum smirks.

"So I have to fake date him and have a a constant voice in the back of my head saying 'Your best friends are probably jerking off to your nudes right now'? How lovely" I scoff.

"Better us than the whole school" Calum points out.

Did I mention that my best friends are both bisexual, and secretly dating each other? I'm like the only person outside their families to know about their relationship. The rest of the world think that they are straight.

"Anyway, here's your first chance, go get yourself a boyfriend!" Ashton smirks, pointing over towards one of the tables across the cafeteria. Luke was sitting at the table by himself, his nose buried in a book I've never heard of.

"Fake boyfriend" I choke out as I stand up. I make my way over to Luke and sit down beside him. "Hey" I say nervously. He looks up at me for a split seconds before looking back down at his book.

"What do you want?" He mutters.

"What are you reading?" I ask, trying to avoid his question.

"Looking For Alaska" he mumbles, "Why do you care?".

"I- Uhh- you looked really into it.. And it- Uhh- made me interested in it" I say nervously... Why am I nervous?!

"Since when do I catch your attention, Clifford?!" Luke spits, glaring at me.

"Since, I- ahh-" I stutter over my words.

"What's wrong with you?!" Luke asks bitterly.

Funny thing I'd learnt about Luke, unlike me, even though he got bullied, he stood up for himself quite well. Something I was never able to get the hang of.

"N-Nothing" I stutter.

"Since when does Michael Clifford stutter?" Luke asks, closing his book and setting it down.

"I-I-" I cough to clear my throat, "I don't".

"No, of course not" Luke says sarcastically. Okay, he's making me mad now.

"Look, okay... I came to ask you on a date" I finally tell him.

"No" he replies without even thinking about an answer.

"What? Why not?!" I ask in disbelief.. Wait, I don't care..

"Because, Michael, I asked you out three times last year and you turned me down because you were straight and I'm a gay freak" Luke spits, grabbing his book and shoving it in his bag.

A pang of guilt starts to eat away at me.

"I'm sorry" I apologise quietly. Luke stands up and begins walking away. "No, Luke, wait!" I call as I stand up and follow him.

"No, I hate you, Clifford! Keep the fuck away from me" he orders.

"Sorry" I choke out, stopping dead in my tracks, watching him storm off.

"Fuck!" I mutter under my breath.

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Dear Stupid Diary,

Luke fucking Hemmings.

I have to get him to date me by the end of the week, my nudes depend on it... I'm still not sure wether or not Ashton & Calum were serious about leaking them... But... Is it worth the risk?

The problem with Luke is that he's stubborn as hell... So this is going to be difficult.

First things first though, I need to get to the book store before it shuts so I can buy a copy of this 'Looking For Alaska' book that Luke was reading... It might help me convince him that in serious...

Not that I'm serious about this... I'm just doing it to save my arse...

I have this strange feeling... Like I kind of want Luke's attention.... Is that normal?!

I'm so confused right now... So I'm going to end this entry here...

- Michael x