The Loverboy

Heartache Part 2

*Ashton's POV*

When I showed up at Rowan's house, her mom was at the door waiting for me. "Do you know what happened?" She asked me, worried. I nodded and gave her a sympathetic look. I didn't know if her parents were aware that we were dating whether they liked it or not, which made the situation awkward. I was just thankful that her dad was not home to yell at anybody again. Honestly, I was scared by it and offended that he was so rude to Rowan.

She let me in and led me up the stairs and down to the end of the hallway, where Rowan's room was. The door was shut and I could hear faint sobs, which really broke my heart, even though I should have been angry with her. I didn't understand why she didn't see this coming. If you're cheating, it's very likely that you'll be found out sooner or later. "Go ahead, I'll give you two some privacy." She said, giving me a weak smile and going back down the hall and down the stairs. I hesitantly grabbed the door knob with shaky hands and opened the door.

I expected for her to either be hiding under her covers or curled up in a ball on the floor somewhere, but she wasn't. I wasn't at all familiar with her house, so I didn't know where she was. By now, the sobs were very quiet. I scanned the room and saw another door, possibly leading to a closet or a bathroom. I saw a light from under the door, so it had to be a bathroom.

I knocked on the door lightly, waiting for a response. No answer. I knocked again, only to be answered with silence. Lucky for me, I was amazing at picking locks to any kind of lock. Back at my old school, I would always pick locks to people's lockers and trash them or take something out and hide it. The lock on her bathroom door was the same as the locks at my house, so it all came naturally to me.

I left the door and opened her curtains to let some light in, because it was dark, and I didn't feel like messing with her light switches. I began searching in all the possible places for a bobby pin. It took me a while to find one, but I took it and began to pick the lock. With a pop, the lock unlocked and I rushed into the bathroom, where I saw something I never wanted to see.

There she was laying on the floor, her left arm covered in blood, with a few cuts across it. My heart sunk deeper than the Titanic. It took me a minute to realize that she was cutting because I broke up with her. I stood there in shock, just looking at her weak figure, before I was able to get any words out. "Rowan" I whispered, kneeling down next to her. "Go away!" She snapped, covering her face. "Rowan, please. Look at me." I begged. I wanted to get a better look and her, and so I tried to gently grab her warm, but she hissed and jerked away from me.

"Rowan, why?" I asked, even though I was well aware of why. She sat there silently and gave me the 'you know why' look. "Please, darling. I didn't want any of this to happen." I told her. "Just because we aren't dating anymore doesn't mean that we're not friends. How could I completely leave you after everything that we've been through?" I asked rhetorically. "Why would you cut your beautiful skin?" I asked. "Because, Ashton." She sobbed. "Please tell me. You can trust me." I reassured her. "Can I, Ashton? Because you sure can't trust me!" I sat there next to her, speechless, "I should have never dated you." She mumbled. "Rowan, I-" "No Ashton, I'm serious. I wish I never went to the summer house, I wish I never let you take me to the hospital after you messed up my ankle, I wish I never asked you to share your feelings with me, and I wish we never went out, and I wish I could take all those kisses I wasted on you back. I'm so stupid for ever giving you a chance! You're just like all the rest of the bad boys, aren't you!!!" She said, much louder now.

"You treat a girl like crap and make her feel manipulated, you make her have to go to the hospital because you thought i would be FUNNY to trip her, and after you get her going and make her think that you both had something special, you break her heart." She fumed. By now, my sympathetic attitude was replaced with anger and frustration and annoyance.

"Rowan!!!!!!" I yelled. I think we both forgot that her mom was probably listening to us. "I don't know how you could even think of something like that! Do you know all the pain I have gone through?!" I asked her. "I had a crush on you since day one. I dreamed about you, I thought about you non stop, and yet I didn't even know your name. All I knew was that you were the good girl, and I was the bad boy and I knew that it would never work out between us, so I never tried to get you to notice me for the real me. Then I remember the one day I learned your name, I repeated it over and over in my head. I thought it was the prettiest name ever. So after a year or two of trying to muster up the courage to talk to you, I did. Of course though, I screwed up big time and I just made myself look bad."

"No kidding" Rowan groaned, looking away from me at her shower curtain. "Rowan, I don't think you know how much heartache I went through, trying to get you to like me. I was simply dying for you to give me a chance, but you built a wall that was hard to break down. No matter how hard I tried, it wasn't good enough for you. So when I got the chance to take you to the hospital and you were holding onto my hand so tightly, it was the most encouraging thing ever. It told me that there was still hope for us. Then, there was the night when I shared my secrets with you. It was the night I shared the real me with you, and you told me that you liked me back. I remember it all so vividly."

"Enough" Rowan spat. "What now?" I groaned. "I have heard enough, so just shut the frick up!" She demanded. "Excuse me?" I said, standing up. "I should be the one telling you to shut the frick up! You were the one who cheated on me! But still, I was nice enough to come over here and give you a chance to redeem yourself, but you just had to be the little prissy thing you are and never open up to anybody who actually makes mistakes!!!!!!!!" "When are you going to get it through your thick skull that I. DID. NOT. CHEAT. ON. YOU." Rowan denied yet again.

"I'm done with this Rowan, I'll see you Friday for tutoring." I growled. "Anything you wanna say?" I asked, still waiting for an apology. I was the one doing all the apologizing and I wasn't at fault. "Get out of my house, Irwin."

A/N- This is so heartbreaking!!!!!! Don't y'all worry though, the story is far from over, and there might (Meaning there will) be a sequel and maybe even a sequel to the sequel (or whatever you call it).

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