𝕊ℙ𝔼ℂ𝕀𝔸𝕃 [Harry x reader]

-[111] Picked A Side 2-

[Y/N POV]

I stumbled my way through the hallways into the Gryffindor common room. I quietly opened the door as it was already past bed time and I wouldn't want the prefects to know that a student is out at this time. I entered inside and slowly closed the door, a wave of tiredness washing over me as I sighed. I then turned around only to quietly yelp when my eyes make contact with my favourite emerald orbs I've adored for years now. 

''Hi!'' I greeted the raven head as I threw an awkward smile at him.

''Where were you?'' Harry asked, dismissing my greetings as my eyes shifted.

''Um...I was with Luna. Yeah. Luna. And we were talking--yes we were. Aaaand I lost track of the time.'' I said sheepishly rubbing my neck as my eyes darted around the room, trying to avoid the burning stare of the boy.

''Luna? Ginny just walked her out of here a few minutes ago. Where were you Y/N/N?'' Harry deadpanned as I went stiff.

'' Okay fine! I wasn't with Luna.'' I said trying to avoid the question.

''Then? Where were you? Were you with someone? Were you with--him?'' He asked with such sadness and disappointment in his voice that I winced. Not trustig my voice, I simply nodded looking down to the ground.

''Y/N, you know what has all happened. And you know I don't trust him. Why would you--Do you still have feelings for him?'' He whispered as I shook my head rapidly, but he seemed to ignore it as tears clouded his vision.

''Why Y/N/N? Why? I'm not mad at you..well that's not entirely true, but I've told you I like you. I thought you did too. Are you playing with me? Are you playing with him too? You can't do this... You can't hurt us both...Please...I can't-- It's hard for me too, you know? I can't see you like this.'' He chocked out ignoring all my attempts of trying to explain to him. My cool didn't stay long.

''HARRY! STOP! JUst stop--please. Why would you think of me like that. I'm not like that, I swear. I've told you I liked you too, didn't I? Am I that untrustworthy? ALL THIS TIME I WANTED WAS A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON! I WANT TO CRY TOO. I'VE BEEN WITH YOU ALL FOR SO LONG. I've given you my shoulder. Is it too bad to say I need one too? AND I'VE NOT BEEN TOYING WITH ANYONE! Let me tell you something. If it weren't for him, I'D BE DEAD, ROTTING AWAY GODRIC KNOWS WHERE! He saved my bloody life! I just wanted to return that favor.'' I said as I collapsed on the floor, sobbing like a baby. Tears flowed out of both of our eyes. He leaned down to my level as he looked at me guiltily.

''Don't you see Harry? I'm tired. But I want to be there for you, Hermione, Ron, and everyone else. And I just want someone to hold onto. It has always been you Harry. Always. All these years it wasn't him running it my mind all the bloody time. It was you, your stupid hair, your stupid eyes, your stupid face. Not him. You. I'd never do that to you. I promise.'' I cried as he took my hands in his and held it on his cheeks.

''I'm sorry..I'm so so sorry. I don't know what came over me. i was jealous. So jealous when I saw you follow him and I thought--god I'm such a bad person Y/N/N. You can rest all you want. I'm so sorry for dragging you into this mess.'' He said teary eyes as his hands fell down. I frowned as I brought my hands to my face and wiped down the tears and then held Harry's face in my hands.

''Bad person? If you are considered bad, I don't know what I might be considered as.'' I whispered as I wiped away a single tear that rolled down his cheeks.

''I said I'm tired, I didn't say I want to quit. Harry, don't you understand? It's not your mess. It's ours. And I'd never, I mean ever give up and not fight. You're my mess, got it? Mine. And I'm not giving anyone else responsibility for you. You're my sanity. You know, you were the only thing that was on my mind when that stake went though my chest. If you were ever taken away from me, I'd set the whole world on fire. I would go absolutely bonkers.'' I said resting my forehead against his as he chuckled.