Life In The Big Apple

Visiting Mom

Stef's: POV
After dropping Frankie over at Madison and Zara's for the day. I drove to San Diego to visit Mom, l called her to let her know that I was in town for a few days. She sounded kinda like her old self again, l pulled up to my child hood home. I see mom's garden was full of flowers and roses
I turned off my car and exit the vehicle and walked upstairs of the porch and rung the door bell, mom came to door and let me inside. Stephanie it's so good to see you
My mother said, same here mom l said to her. She hugged me. Mom wasn't the affectionate type for hugs, l would have made us lunch if l known you coming so early
Mom says to me. Mom it's fine so how have you been doing, l asked her. Stefanie you know l've been doing better. Work is good l'm glad the semester is over for winter break, mom says to me. That's a good thing
Stef said, l was kinda of surprised to hear from you
I thought you were still mad at me for what happened back in new York. Mom replied sadly, l was pretty pissed at you for being disrespectful towards Lena. I said to mom, my mother just looked at me with pity eyes
What did you expect Stefanie you just up and left without an explanation to moved across the country with her
She States. I felt my anger bubbling inside , but I tried to remain calm. Mom what do you really have against Lena
She's a remarkable woman and whom I love dearly
So no you don't get to say those things about the mother of my children, if Dad was alive he would never say these things to me. Mom Lena is the woman l'm going to spend the rest of my life with, what do have against her
I said my mother. Stephanie she's changed you
Mom says to me, l get up off the couch. Mom l thought I could compare oven here and have a civilized conversation with you, but l was wrong to think you would change. Once I walk out the door, don't expect me to come back again, l love you mother but l can't talk to you anymore. Stef grabs her bag and walk towards the front door, and open it up and walked down the steps to my car. Mom's standing in the doorway with her arms crossed over her chest. I take a deep breath and get in the car, fasten my seat belt then started up the ignition and back up out the driveway. I had a few hours before l needed to pickup Francesca from Madison and Zara's house. I drove down to the beach to clear my head
I can't believe the nerve of my mother, l pulled up to the San Diego pier. I'm not trying to let her words tear me down, l got out the car and began walking along the beach
Thinking. Lena never changed me, she just helped me discover, what I been missing all my life. She made me believe in Myself. I love Lena more than I ever loved anybody in this world, she's the first person l think about at night and the last when I wake up in the morning
I love the life we've created together. Lena gave me too beautiful daughters, whom l would protect them with my life. From the moment I held them in my arms, l knew
I was meant to be their mother, even though I can't have my own kids. The day Lena told me she was pregnant
That was the happiest day of my life, we had our eggs mixed. It was a painful when they extract some of eggs
I tried to have a baby after all the tests the doctor perform
On me, it was discovered that I had Endometriosis which means. It's a disorder in which tissue that normally lines the uterus,grows outside the uterus, it's permanent,
It was heartbreaking to hear. Lena didn't let me feel sorry for myself, or blame. She included me in the process when it came to choosing the donor. We picked a Caucasian
Male, so the girls could have exhibit some of my DNA as well Lena's. We use the same man when Lena wanted to get pregnant with Ariana. Lena tells me that Ariana is just like me, so when mom said Frankie and Ariana weren't mine. Scattered my heart, I can't understand why mom was being so cold hearted, towards Lena. She liked in the beginning. But I can't change how she feels, mom just has to except that l'm never giving Lena up. We're going to be married in four, l sat down and stared out in the ocean
Trying to gain some clarity and understanding.