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Steve lets out an angry huff, slumping down on the couch in the common room. Footsteps follow behind him and he doesn't need to turn around to know that she was behind him, backing him up as always, but it was different this time when they had broken up and had just finished their first mission together post break up. 

"You've been awfully quiet today Steve. You okay?" She asks, shifting her weight nervously, picking at the nail polish on her nails, a bad habit she had developed when she was nervous. 

He groans in responses, considering his response, before snarking a comment at her. "What do you want me to say Natasha?"

"I don't know- something-" She says. A few of the other Avengers past the common room, but avoid going into it, instead watching the scene unfold from outside. 

"What? Like I slept with someone else after we broke up because I did. And I regret it." He snaps, getting up suddenly, turning around to face her. He stubs his toe on the coffee table. "Shit."

"I did too." She yells back, because apparently yelling at one another in the common room was their thing now. It was messy, chaotic, because when was love ever not all of that? "Wait you regret it?" She ponders over his last statement for far longer than she hoped she would. 

"Do you not?" He questions, his hand curling into a ball, a sign of his impatience and anger. A tick she knew all too well, something she had seen in their relationship before. But he never took it out on her, he was fuming mad, but never did he once hit her. 

"Well yes I do but," She begins but hesitates and is cut off by Steve. 

"But what Natasha?" Impatience. 

"Our love story ended a long time ago." She was not wrong. They had broken up over a year ago, found other people to date, other people to screw, other people all in hopes of moving past one another. But despite all that, they found themselves in the situation again where they were once again confronted with feelings for one another after a certain compromising position on the mission. It clearly did not end well, with him storming out of the Quinjet as soon as it landed, and her having to chase after, which led them, here. 

"That doesn't mean we don't get to start over. I just want you to be happy natasha. And if you're happy with someone else I will respect your decision and watch you be happy. But are you?" He questions. She feels her cheeks burn up. 

"You don't get to question my life choices Steve. We made the decision to break up amicably." She warns, as a rush of emotions flood over her. 

He is not convinced. She is convincing and a great liar, but he has learnt long ago when she was lying and when she was not, and hated that she was lying to him at this very present moment. "But are you happy Natasha?" He repeats his last question again. 

That's when she loses it. "What do you want me to say Steve? No, not really because I'm only happy with you. Because I will say it and it's true, you make me the happiest I have ever been." She confesses, the outburst surprising her, as she looks down and shuffles her feet, shifting her weight again. 

What he says next makes her go dead quiet and still, not because all the nerves are gone, but because she's so terrified she can feel the blood drain out of her body as he says, "I still love you, you know. I will always love you, part of me will never move past that."

"Why do I get the feeling that you're not over me?" She questions, the words leaving her tongue faster than her thoughts can process. 

"Because I'm not Natasha, I'm not. and I don't think I will ever be. And if you're happy with someone else then I will respect that and watch you be happy because I want what's best for you. " Avoiding the question, but proving that he was not over her either. 

"I'm not either." She admits. 

"Okay so what do you want to do about it?" He asks, throwing her off guard. 

More dodging of questions, and replying with more questions. "Can we just stop questioning whatever this is and just go with it." She's vague, but so is he. 

"Go with what Natasha?" Ah, always the impatient one, demanding answers he didn't even know himself. 

She cuts him off by sealing his lips with a kiss, a kiss she has longed for for ages, the one that she missed, the one that felt new and familiar and a rush of emotions all at the same time, but most importantly felt right. 

"How's that for what I want to do." She rasps seductively as she pulls away.  

"it's good. " He replies honestly, he's always honest. 

She smirks at him, teasing "Is it?"

"Yeah." He smiles, his eyes softening and his anger suddenly seething. 

"Show me how good this can be." She smirks. 

He doesn't hesitate, "Yes Ma'am."

They say life has no do overs and what's past is past and one can never go back, but sometimes, love finds a way back to you. This love is good, this love is bad, this love is alive back from the dead, these hands had to let it go free but this love came back.

Tony chooses this exact moment to burst right though the door. "Oh my god, finally." 

Clint follows suit, laughing in response. "Now get out, tear one another's clothes off somewhere else. We need the common room for something that is not a lovers tiff."

Natasha shakes her head, smirking at Clint. "Shut up or I will snap your neck. And I mean it."

Steve smiles and his hand snakes around her waist as he agrees. "She will Clint, and I will not be the one to stop it."

Tony shakes his head. "Ew, get your flirting out of my line of sight, it's disgusting."

Natasha pulls her tongue out at Tony, turning to kiss Steve, passionately, on the lips. A series of groans come from the others. 

"Public displays of affection make people very uncomfortable," Steve teases, reciting the same line she once said to him while on the run. 

She laughs. "Yes, they do." And kisses him again. 

A/N: le gasp i posted and its not sad ish okay maybe its a little sad but it comes in a full cycle and it becomes happy again and this was inspired by the line by april kepner in greys sometimes love finds a way back to you cause yknow japril my baes are endgame and all ayyy. also its lowk giving madeleine and james vibes (characters from my book)