𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻 🌧 <𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶> ✅

"just a headache."

we drink the poison our hearts pour
for us, then wonder why we feel so sick.

mattia

"get off!...mama! help!" i watched myself yell in a home video my dad was showing both me and my little brother as we sat on the couch.

"i wan' hug you!" gianluca yelled, grabbing at my shirt and holding on close to me.

i hated these damn videos. back when my parents love for me was fading away and starting to rub off on gianluca.

i pretty much gave up once gian wrapped his little arms around me, and my mom awed in the video. "alright...i'm going upstairs." i said, pushing myself off of the couch and going back to my room.

"but you guys look adorable in these old videos, matti!" my mom yelled, before shutting my bedroom door and plopping down on my bed.

ever since my mom got pregnant, she's been really emotional lately. crying uncontrollably at nearly every little thing.

the other day, we went out for breakfast, and they didn't have any strawberry milkshakes on the menu, and when i say she had the biggest meltdown, i mean she had the biggest meltdown. my dad had to practically carry her out of their because of all the stares. then he has to explain that she was expecting and everyone seemed to understand.

a part of me deep down inside still loves my mom but i really didn't like having to wake up extra early on weekdays to buy her breakfast from mcdonald's. and if i didn't get her order right, then i'd expect a beating with her chancla when i got home.

she gave me my car back just so i could get her whatever she wanted.

to top it off, it was a saturday, so i didn't get to see kairi at all.

i had to wait another whole day before seeing his stupid little face again.

which kinda sucked, as much as he annoyed me, he was funny and really weird. which just made him even more fun to hang out with him.

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"mattia polibio, late." i heard mrs. connor call out as i walked in, dropping my bag on the seat at the table kairi was sitting at.

"don't care......hi," i whispered, turning towards kairi and bumping his shoulder.

i didn't get much of a reaction, just a shrug and grunt of a hi.

"you ok?" i asked, kicking his leg a bit as he turned to look over at me, his eyes squinted because of the bright lighting. "yes, fine...are you good?" kairi questioned, laying his head on his arm and giving me a small smile.

he looked really tired.

"yeah, 'm good..." i gave a small nod before mrs. connor assigned an article to read, along with a bunch of questions to answer.

"we should work on the project after school...or during lunch?" i asked, opening my laptop and looking through my emails for the assignment.

kairi hadn't answered as he started to slowly take his computer out.

"kairi?"

"hm?...yeah...that sounds fine..." kairi nodded, rubbing his forehead and groaning softly.

"ok."