𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻 🌧 <𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶> ✅

"forget we were ever a thing."

leave me alone, leave me alone
i can't help but repeat myself
i know it's not your fault
still lately i begin to shake for no reason at all

third pov

mattia really did think that things would have gotten better after their whole night together. maybe kairi would have started to feel better?

mattia was a fucking idiot for thinking that sex would solve all of their problems.

things only got worse.

kairi was losing a lot of weight, and really fast.

his strength was seeming to go down and it just felt like the real kairi that he knew was starting to disappear.

kairi hated feeling so weak and tired all of a sudden. especially when he was hanging out with mattia a lot more often now and all he wanted was to do anything with him and just be happy with him.

it felt nearly impossible now.

"ew, i feel so yucky." kairi huffed as he jumped into his hospital bed, cuddling into mattia's side and pulling the blanket on top of both of them.

"you peed in the cup?" mattia asked with a smile as he hugged kairi tight. "yup, i hate peeing in those cups, it's so gross."

"at least we're gonna get good news once those results come back,"

"i doubt it...they might tell me i'm during tomorrow so soak up all this time you have left with me," kairi smiled, just making kairi pinch his cheek. "hey, don't say that."

"what? it's true." kairi shrugged, just making mattia worry at the seemingly 'normal' reaction that kairi had. "don't like you saying that...or even thinking that, kai...please don't say that." mattia said, kairi just huffed with a nod.

kairi had to come in today for a few more tests, including blood, pee, and other stupid stuff that was really tiring. kairi was just planning on sleeping in that day with mattia and watching movies all day, instead they were sat in a little hospital room with only eachother to keep themselves company. thankfully that was enough for kairi.

kairi didn't feel very guilty until he looked up to see mattia's worried face.

"i'm only kidding, matti...i'm here, not going anywhere."

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kairi didn't like the feeling of pity.

not one bit.

so it sucked hearing that he had a low red blood cell count.

mattia sat there, rubbing kairi's back and squeezing his hand as tight as he could to remind him that he was there with him.

while his mom tried her best to hold in her cries and sobs, but kairi knew that as soon as they got home, she would probably break down in her room once she's by herself.

"-and your lymph nodes are enlarged and swollen as well...so...i guess this-"

"this means that the chemotherapy isn't helping, right? i shaved my head for nothing?" kairi asked, sitting up in his hospital gown and pushing mattia's arm off of him. "that's what it means? i've gone through multiple rounds of all of this just for it not to help me at all?"

doctor dalton paused, frowning at kairi's sudden reaction.

"kairi, i'm sure another round of chemotherapy can help, after another three months you can come back in, we've only been doing it so often to try to tackle this in a better way-"