Jacob

Chapter Three

AN: I just wanted to say my heart is truly broken of the loss of such a young innocent man. I truly morn for Cooper and his loved ones. Along with all his friends. Fly high Cooper you'll be missed by many. I'm sorry I haven't uploaded because of this. Thank you for all the love on this story as well. Join Coopers discord. Coop's Advice when you have a second. Rest In Peace we love you.🕊

Time skips to the next day

Y/n's POV,

I woke up laying on top of Jacob's chest. Even though I just woke up I'm still so f*cking tired. If you can't tell my vibe of life is depressing. My life may seem amazing from the outside, but on the inside I'm falling the hell apart. I decided to go on my phone again even though I'm quite literally giving myself the poison that gives me all these mental health issues in the first place. I sat there for fifteen minutes before I left Jacob move over. I looked up and saw him awake.

Y/n: Hi, I said in a raspy voice trying to act like I'm perfectly fine.

Jacob: Hi, he said moving a peace of hair behind my ear. (😝🤍)

Y/n: How did you sleep?

Jacob: We'll I think the better question is how did you sleep, he said sitting up?

Y/n: I'm ok Jacob I promise, I said trying to act fine.

I sat in a crisscross position desperately trying to keep a sriracha face and act ok. The red lights hitting my face as I felt like Jacob's eyes look at my body tracing me. I felt like he could see right through me. I felt like he could see me. Not just what I look like, but me. How I'm feeling, how I'm dreaming. Dreaming for a better life. Dreaming of one with someone to lift my mood.

Jacob: Ok sure, he said pushing off on the bed and into my lap looking in my eyes.

Y/n: What?

I got no answer from him. He just stared at me.

Y/n: J-

I got cut off by the feeling of his lips touching mine. The soft touch of his lips filling me up like a drug I don't want to go away. It was like nothing I ever felt before. I don't like sounding cheesy, but it felt like a spark. Not just any type of spark though. I think Jacob's the one. Yeah he makes me happy but I almost feel bad I'm putting on a face that's not true.

I snapped out of my thoughts when he put his hands on my waist, and I put my hands on his neck. We were now on our knees holding the kiss. I didn't want it to end, but it did. I loud knock on the door broke the kiss. I got up and answered the door.

Y/n: Hey Tabitha, I said with a warm smile.

Tabitha: Hey are you ok? I just wanted to check in on you.

Y/n: Yeah I'm ok. Thanks for asking. It's been hard for me. Like really hard, but today. Todays a day where I'm gonna try and act like everything's ok.

Todays a where Jacob thinks I'm ok, is what I was actually saying.

Tabitha: Wow that's a great mind set to have. If you need anything let me know, she said smiling.

Y/n: Thanks I'll be down in a second, I said about to close the door and she stopped.

Tabitha: Oh hey I forgot to mention that the whole house is planning on going to the beach in like an hour if you guys wanna go?

Y/n: Yeah, yeah, of sure.

What I really wanted to do was stay in bed. I'm still tired and want to lay down for the rest of the day, but I need to do my job no matter how much it kills me. I wanted to stay home and stay in Jacob's embrace. I wanted to fall back asleep into my dreams. I wanted to dream about the dream I had last night.

Y/n's Dream,

I was in a field with Jacob. We were running around holding hands not having a care in the world. He was laughing and so was I. It felt so real even though it wasn't. There's no social media, no hype house, no haters, and no panic or anxiety attacks for me to go through. We kept running threw this field, and it felt like forever. All of a sudden we stopped right in the middle of the field. The sun beating down on us. The wind swaying back and forth making my dress almost completely lift up as I stared at Jacob. I looked into his blue eyes hitting the sun. He smiled at me before pulling me in by my waist kissing me.

End Of Dream.

Y/n's POV,

Jacob: So we're going to the beach, he said as I bumped into his chest turning around.

I looked up at him and it made me feel so small. I'm five three and he's over sox feet tall. I started to blush as I answered.

Y/n: If you want to.

Jacob: Mmmmm, how about we stay here and hang out? I can see you Y/n. I can see that your tired, he looked down at me.

I smiled big.

Y/n: Deal, I said jumping back on the bed.

Jacob: Want me to go get some snacks for us, he said kneeling down putting his hands on the thighs?

Y/n: I can do it.

Jacob shook his head.

Jacob: I'll go do it. You need to rest.

Y/n: Fine, I said crossing my arms.

He squeezed my thighs and got a little playful.

Jacob: Don't you role your eyes at me, he said smirking.

I rolled my eyes again.

Jacob: That's it!

He grabbed me and threw me on the bed. He got on top of me tickling me.

Y/n: J- Jacob stop, hahaha!

I squirmed around.

Jacob: Say your sorry first, he said laughing!

Y/n: Haha, ok- ok I'm sorry, I said trying to catch my breath after he stopped.

Jacob got up and walked out of the door to get the snacks from the kitchen.

Jacob: I'll be back, he said closing the door behind him.

I sat there on the bed picking a movie when Mia walked in closing the door behind her.

Mia: Hey, she said sitting on the bed.

Y/n: Hey.

Mia: How are you doing?

Y/n: I'm honestly ducking exhausted and trying to put on a brave face for Jacob. I don't want him to know I'm mentally broken.

Mia: He's your best friend you should tell him.

Y/n: Yeah I just don't know if I can.

At that moment Jacob walked in on his phone.

Jacob: Oh hey Mia.

Mia: Hey Jacob. I'll come back later, she said walking out of the room closing the door.

I wonder if I should tell him. I wonder if I should open up, but a part of me is terrified to let someone in. Apart of me is terrified to let a guy in.

Jacob: Hello? Earth to Y/n, he said snapping me out of my thoughts.

Y/n: Huh sorry what, I said laying down on the bed with Jacob?

Jacob: Haha, I asked what movie do you wanna watch?

Y/n: Mmmmm can we watch freaky Friday, I said putting my hand on his chest looking up at him?

Jacob: Haha, yeah sure.

He put the movie on and I laid my head on his chest. He played with my hair curling it around his fingers. We watch the movie and half way in I heard Jacob humming the song. I started to hum it with his laughing.

He played with my hair again and rubbed my back. I knew at that second he cares so much about me, and I don't want him to have to worry about me. I'm not gonna tell Jacob how I truly feel.