Jacob

Chapter Forty six

I woke up the next day with a salty taste in my mouth. I rubbed my eyes until I felt my stomach turn and nausea take over. I sprung up and jumped on the ground. I fell to the floor and threw up all over the wooden brown floor. I felt Jacob's hand on my back as he rubbed it and pulled my hair back. As I finished throwing up Jacob grabbed me and brought me down the hall to his room. He pulled the blanket over me and kissed my head.

Jacob: I'm gonna go clean up I'll be back ok, he said putting my hair behind my ear.

Y/n: Ok, I said putting my head down and smiling weakly at him.

As I watched him walk away I took a sip of my water and went on my phone. I scrolled through tiktok till I felt myself about to throw up again. That's when Jacob came in as I pushed pasted him and into the bathroom. I bled onto the toilet as I threw up everything I ate the other day which wasn't that much. I heard Jacob walk in again and tie my hair up. I sit down and catch my breath once I finish. I look back at Jacob and see him turn on the shower water. He picks me up and starts taking my clothes off one by one.

Jacob: You look like your dying, he smiled.

Y/n: I am, I responded as Jacob picked me up and put me in the shower.

I didn't think he was going to come in and then he did fully clothed. I stared at him for a second until he started to talk.

Jacob: I wanna help you. I don't care if I'm soaking wet and fully clothed.

I smiled at him as he rubbed my cheek and put his other hand on my belly.

As he grabbed soap and washed my body clean for me as i sat there looking lifeless he smiled.

Y/n: What could you be smiling about?

Jacob: Oh nothing... just that I get to take care of you and the baby all day, he said shutting the water off and getting out.

I watched him brag a towel as he turned me around and put it around me. He kissed my head and grabbed his phone off the sink.

Jacob: I'll leave you to change, he said closing the door behind himself.

I looked in the mirror and I looked like a ghost. I gasped at the sight and then realized how frail I look. I look like I'm dying. That's not ok. I need to start taking better care of myself. I need to start eating for me and my baby. A tear fell from my eye as I touched my belly.

Y/n: I'm sorry I haven't been the best mom, the tear fell on my belly. I'm gonna do my best to take care of myself and you well your still in here, I smiled and cried.

That's when it hit me. Jacob. He loves me for how I am. He loves me for my health problems. He loves me for my eating problems. He loves me, he loves me, he's the best thing that ever happened to me. Good I love him. I smiled and sipped the tears that were on my cheeks off and turned around. I looked at the clothes on the rack. It was just Jacob's clothes and a few pairs of my underwear. I grabbed a pair of my underwear and one of Jacob's shirts. I threw it over my head and pulled the underwear up. I looked at myself in the mirror and half frowned.

Y/n: It'll be ok because I'll take care of myself, I said to myself before walking out the bathroom door.

I don't wanna sorry anyone. I don't want family to be worried. I don't want Jacob to be worried. I don't want the fans to be worried most of all because I'm scared to open up about my eating problems. I will one day when I look better... when people see and realize the difference, but for now it's not the time to open up. I don't want people feeling and for me. I don't want anyone to try and hand me things.

As I looked us Jacob was sat on the bed. He smiled as he looked up at me.

Y/n: What, I said looking at him?