Jacob

Chapter Thirteen

Time skips to the next day.

Y/n's POV,

I woke up in my bed alone. After everything that happened yesterday I feel like sh*t, I mean am I wrong for doing what I did? (Is she though fr?)

I looked out at the cold dark sky. Even though it was morning it was dark and cold. Not only that but the sky was crying. Huge rain dips fell from the sky. It was almost like the world was telling me something. It was almost as if the world was telling me how I felt.

I decided to get up out of bed and change into some sort of an outfit so I could do my job and look presentable. I walked into my closet and picked out an outfit with the clothes I have here.

^ This is the outfit.

After changing I brushed my hair leaving it down. I then walked over to my makeup bag and grabbed some mascara. I only put on mascara because it's a rainy depressing day and I have no where to go. After doing that I looked around my room and saw it was such a mess. I walked around and picked up all the clothes that were every where. I couldn't stop thinking about my brother. I couldn't stop thinking about our fight and all the awful things we said to each other. My mind started to run and overfill with horrible thoughts of our fight. I had to get them out of my head! I grabbed my forces and put them on along with my black jacket. It was early in the morning so no one else was up. It was seven am to be exact. I tiptoed down the steps very quietly and put the front door. As I walked through the pouring rain down to the side of the property I couldn't help but want to cry. I didn't have anyone in this moment to help me. No Jacob, no sister, no friends, no fans, and most of all No brother....

Soaking wet now, I ran into the hype bus. No one ever comes down here and goes in the bus unless they're taking it somewhere. So the chances are very unlikely. The bus was quiet. A perfect place to think and destress. I decided even though I wasn't having a panic attack yet, that I would play emotional highs by Vinnie. As I laid there, on the floor of the bus with my head pressed again the seats I closed my eyes. I pretended I wasn't here. I pretended for one second, which felt like forever that I wasn't here. I pretended that for one second I was normal. No crazy ex boyfriend, no fame, no money, no La, no 2019, and no Y/n... (Bro is she committing!? AHHHHH! Ok but let me know if I should have a chapter where she almost does but doesn't because I have a great idea for that now!)

As I sat there listening to the song trying my best to calm down almost as if I was clinging to it, I couldn't. I started to feel weak and tired as my heart rate started to pick up. My body started to tremble and I felt restless, but also doomed and in danger. I clenched my fists trying to fight it off again but failed. The panic attack took over. I started not to be able to breath and then everything went black.

Five minutes later,

I had no clue what happened in the few minutes I blacked out. All I knew was that the panic attack was over, but my whole body felt like, I could just sink into the ground and be ok with it. I broke down and started to cry in my lap with my hands on my face. That's when Jacob came busting the door open and hugging me while I cried.

Jacob's POV,

I hugged Y/n as my whole shirt got soggy with her tears. I was upset she was hurting, but happy I found her. No one else in the house was awake. I had woken up twenty minutes ago. I walked to her room and couldn't find her. That's when I thought where would my best friend go? That's when I ran down to the bus and saw her here.

Y/n's POV,

I cried and my whole body shook as Jacob held me in his arms. I wasn't thinking about the panic attack though. I was thinking about my brother, my life, and how much I need a vacation away from it all.

Y/n: J- Jacob, I stuttered trying to form just a name, his name.

Jacob: Yeah bub?

Y/n: I- it happened again, I sobbed.

Jacob's eyes lit up knowing what I meant. He pulled me in even closer and hugged me.

Jacob: Baby, I'm so, so sorry this keeps happening you.

Y/n: I need to get away Jacob, I need to get away from here. I don't care where it is I just do.

Once I stopped talking I couldn't talk anymore. My whole body was whipped clean from all energy I had. (I feel bad for Y/n 😖)

Jacob laid with me on one of the bean bags in the bus as I continued to think closing my eyes. Jacob always had made me feel better since the day I met him, but this time it's different. Yeah, he cheers me up a little bit, but I can't feel ok right now. So instead of acting ok I'm gonna act how I feel no matter what people tell me. No matter what people call me, a b*tch or EMO depressed girl they don't know what's going on, and I have the right to feel just like them. At that thought I fell asleep on the bean bag in Jacob's arms. ( I love how she took this fight harder then the one she had with Jacob 🙄)

Jacob's POV,

I looked over and saw Y/n asleep on me. It's crazy how she went from being so happy to having a panic attack because of the fight she had with her brother. I feel like sh*t for her. I can't stand seeing someone I love her hurt like this. A specially the love of my life. I picked her up and took her back to the house. I walked up the stairs quietly and brought her to her room. I put her in her bed and tucked her in.

Two hours later.

Y/n's POV,

I woke up not in Jacob's arms anymore and in my bed. I looked on my night stand and saw my phone. I picked up my phone and saw it was almost eleven o'clock. I sat there on my phone for a sec before deciding to go downstairs. I took a deep breath and grabbed my phone walking down the stairs. I walked into the filming room by the doorway and saw all the guys playing pool. Thomas was the only one not playing. I locked eyes with Jacob and he signaled for me to come over.

Jacob: Thomas is looking to talk to you, he whispered in my ear.

Y/n: I don't wanna talk to him, I whispered in his ear.

Jacob: I know bub, but maybe you should so that way you don't have to worry about it.

Vinnie: Hey, love birds care to share the conversation, he said hitting a pool wall.

I looked up and saw everyone looking at us.

Y/n: Nothing j-

I got cut off by Thomas walking into the room.

Thomas: Y/n, come in the kitchen we need to talk.

Y/n: We could just talk right here, I stayed glued to Jacob's side.

Thomas: You know what fine, he said slapping his arms to his side.

I got a little nervous my heart starting to pick up and feeling like I'm gonna have a panic attack again. I stead of Aj causing me panic attacks now who would have thought it's my brother. I took a step back feeling a little dizzy. Jacob put his hand on my back to stop me. I looked up at him and he nodded. I took a deep breath and started to talk.

Y/n: Aren't we all just psycho? I mean I love Jacob he's the one thing that makes me happy. Ok you don't know what he's helped me through. Ok so you calling me all these horrible things, and mean names is ridicules. It hurts my feelings so much. I- I-

Jacob cut me off.

Jacob: She had a panic attack this morning alone Thomas. No one was there for her.

Thomas had a shocked looked in his face.

Y/n: And I know damn well I shouldn't have had a panic attack over our fight! I never had a panic attack that bad! It was to the point that I blacked out for five minutes! Im not the b*tch here Thomas you are, I said about to cry.

I kept yelling till Thomas walked up to me and hugged me. I collapsed in his arms crying. I started to think I'm the hug again letting my mind wonder. All I want is a vacation. Yeah me and Thomas made up now, but I want a escape. I'll do anything to escape....