Pack Queen ( under editing)

Chapter 36:: fallen alien

Chapter 36: fallen Alien

" i''m a fallen alien I never thought that you would be the one to tie me down, but you did — fka twigs

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Mason , Mason , Mason . The more I said his name the more foreign it sounded. I'd seen that face for the better part of three years.  The golden son , the champion of the school.  The heir to the whole town. Guy like him were born lucky. The rest of us were just lucky to be born. I didn't think highly of Mason , infact my opinion of him was low that no secret .
I hated everything he stood for , everything he represented, I hated him for who he was.

He was cruel , witless, evil , arrogant . An all around horrible person despite having everything anyone one could ever hope to have. I remembered so many of my encounters with him. From freshman year all the way to my most recent one. I looked at Mason and all I could see was oppression . A bastard looming over me , threatening me , as he dose denying me a moment of comfort and now even my own future or freedom. I looked down at the letter in my hand it was long. I hadn't yet read it , I wasn't yet sure if I was to even give him that satisfaction

Dear Mariah

I don't know if this will ever find you , I have re written this so many times , as you can imagine I'm not the best with words , knowing me I'll probably tear it up before you ever lay eyes on it. I know what you think of me , In fact I can't say I blame you I'm sure I deserve whatever your opinion is . I've been made to realize a lot of things lately, things about myself , about you , about what I've done ,

I am selfish , I am arrogant , I an shallow and vain I am completely undeserving of you and possibly everything I have this I know . Finn did deserve you though, he gave your relationship up for my sake , even after I had disappointed him time and time again. I never intended to ruin what you two had I know it may seem like that to you.

I know this means nothing but for what it's worth I'm sorry, I'm sorry for hurting you , I'm sorry for the part I played in anything that led up to you in the Forrest that day . what I said to you about being insignificant, about being no one none of that is true. I was suffering , too immature and stupid to handle my own emotions my own problems, my own insecurities so I took them out on you and you didn't deserve any of that . whatever I was going through isn't an excuse . I'm trying to be better

I don't know what's going to happen, a lot of things aren't in my control and now my father knows the truth. I don't know what he'll do with it . This community that I'm part of it can be dangerous sometimes. I wish it didn't have to be like this, believe me I do . but all I can do is try and fix it if you'd give me the chance I'd like to make it up to you. Prove to you that i changed . Maybe one day you'll be able to forgive me for all I've done , maybe one day we can even be friends

Sincerely
Mason

"I wouldn't hold my breath,". I said tossing the letter on my dresser. Did he really expect me to forgive him? Mason has spent the better part of three years harassing me and during my relationship with Finn he had went so far as to threaten me. whole time I was his " mate". Then he writes me this sorry letter as an attempt to what garner sympathy. I don't care about his problems, his insecurities, or whatever he's dealing with personally.

He has no idea what problems are , try coming home to house with no food , try coming home to an alcoholic mother passed out surrounded by empty bottles, try going to sleep while your mother is getting beaten by her boyfriend in the next room. Try going to school only for things to get worse. He has no idea what suffering is like . What problems are. Him writing the letter itself was insulting .