Pack Queen ( under editing)

Chapter 37: Us

Chapter 37: Us

" living in a den of thieves rummaging for answering in the pages". Regina skeptor

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I hadn't slept , i couldn't , I wouldn't half the night was spent crying into my pillow wondering why me ?  I thought about before Mr. Dorians project, I thought about Finn and how I had passed him so many times in the hall unknowing of what was to come . I thought about Mason and my hatred for him. A pure and perfect hatred that's greater now then when I had first layed eyes on him. I thought about Robin , my sweet sun, I thought about his smile and his warmth and how scared I was for him , I thought about how what was happening to him was  Mason's fault. I thought about my mother , who I'd come to understand after what could possibly be years of resentment.  I thought about the life she had given up for me.  I knew what it was like to use this power , to feel it and have it be part of you and to give that up . For the short while that I've possessed my abilities I had become addicted.

I thought about what leaving now would mean , I guess the hardest part would be to leave my mother behind. truth is the way I see it , she's better off without me, my existence only served to burden her. Any way I looked at it , I had no choice. Wether this new threat would show up or not that was a problem for another time. The best course of action was putting 200 miles between me and this place. 

I had packed everything necessary, I'd planned to write my mother a letter and I'd planned to say goodbye to Finn in person . we didn't have much of a plan , I figured we'd squat somewhere until we could find jobs . Between me and him we should have enough for a year if rationed properly.  We hadn't picked out a spot , but I was thinking Seattle or Hawaii even . I've always wanted to live in a metropolitan city though running away to a tropical island did have a nice ring to it.

Before I knew it the sun came up , As I got undressed I found myself staring at the marking  etched onto my chest . it almost felt like a mark of shame or a curse. I looked in the mirrior , I looked like shit , I looked like shit took a shit and the shit it took shat me .  Today was prom , as excited as I was for this two weeks ago , going now actually felt like a chore. Myself a year ago would barely be able to wrap her head around the fact that she has a senior boyfriend who's taking her to the prom , then again myself a year would barely be able to wrap her head around what's currently happening. As much as I didn't want to go , I knew deep down in my heart that I had to give myself this night . It was possibly one of the only good things I'd have to look back on after I leave. My phone vibrated , I looked down to see, I hadn't checked my phone since I'd gotten home .

Robin : your dress should be here by four or before that , I just filled up my tank , I'm on the way to the bank right now to withdraw as much as I can .  do what ever you have to do , I'll be there to pick you up by 7

I scrolled down and saw the messages that finn had sent me .

Finneas : I'm sorry Mariah , Mr.McCann told your mom everything,  she wasn't exactly surprised neither did she refuse his offer , when you get this call me .

I hit the call button on finn's contact . Letting it ring until he inevitably answered.

" Mariah ". Finn said answered

" Finn ". I responded back almost teasingly

" are you okay ? " he asked voicing his concern

" ok is pretty relative , but I'd say I'm fine , Finn you don't have to worry , I would've called you sooner , but I hadn't checked my phone until now ". I said