Not Quite as Planned

No Fucking Way

The next few weeks passed by in a fucking flash. I've been getting nothing but good grades in my classes, I've been acing these group projects that I've had to do, and the best part, my relationship with Hitoshi has been absolutely perfect. He spends quite a bit of time at Eijiro and I's dorm to hang out with me and when we're not here we're out somewhere on a date. There's only one thing that's not so great, I'm fucking sick.
I don't mean sick like I'm coughing, have a fever, and can't leve bed, I mean sick like I'm constantly throwing up and can't hold anything fucking down. I've been doing my best not to let Hitoshi or Eijiro catch onto this as I don't want them to worry about me but it's kind of hard when Hitoshi's with me most mornings and that's usually when my nausea's the worst.
   When a week of this shit went by I simply thought that it was a stomach bug and that I'd get over it. After week two? I started to get slightly more concerned that it may not be a stomach bug and there might actually be something wrong but I still deemed it not my top priority. But now that it's going on the end of week 3? I'm pissed the fuck off. I'm getting annoyed and I'm now actually pretty fucking concerned that I might be dying.
   So, you may be asking, what is my solution? Google. I was currently sitting in my second class, doing nothing as I finished all of my work, my thoughts were racing while I tried to keep my nausea at bay. While in the midst of my overthinking I finally brought myself to look up what might be wrong with me on the internet, hoping to find something that'll put my mind at ease.
   What I found was exactly the opposite. Every single top result that I found said that there's a high chance that I'm pregnant. That's just ridiculous though, right? After about 15 minutes of searching and only getting the same result I finally put my phone away, my body stiffening with fear. What was I going to do if I was actually-
I didn't let the thoughts continue. I grabbed my shit and walked out of class. It was college so who actually gave a fuck anyway. I texted Eijiro and Hitoshi to cancel our plans for meeting up for lunch and went to my dorm. When I got back I threw my bookbag in my room, grabbed my car keys, and drove to the closest pharmacy, I needed to know. Now.
   When I pulled up to the pharmacy I took a deep breath before getting out of my car and walking inside. I walked around the store until I found the section where they kept the pregnancy tests. I looked at a couple different options, deciding on one that I felt would be my safest bet. I grabbed 2 of them and headed to self checkout, not wanting anyone else to see what I'm here for.
After checking out I made the drive back to my dorm, though it felt like an eternity. When I did finally make it back I darted to my dorm and into my room, not wanting to deal with anybody. I locked my door behind me, leaning against it for a couple minutes before walking to the bathroom to take the tests.
   It said on the box that it took 5 minutes for the results to come through so I set my phone timer and waited. Me waiting for the results was basically just me pacing around my room, my anxiety through the roof. My brain started coming up with every single possible outcome, the worst one being is that it comes back positive and Hitoshi ends up leaving me.
Tears were slowly starting to fill my eyes when my alarm went off. I walked back into the bathroom to turn it off, eyeing the tests that were on the opposite side of the counter. I feel my throat dry up as I looked at the tests, trying to build up the courage to actually look at the results.
   It took me a couple minutes but when the courage finally showed up I grabbed the first test. Positive. I felt my heart drop but hoped that it was just a fluke or something. I reached over and grabbed the second test. I took a deep breath before looking at the results on this one. Also positive.
I felt myself stumble against the wall, slowly falling to the floor. "Y-You're kidding, there's no fucking way that this is happening." I said to myself, gripping onto my hair. I felt tears start streaming down my face, slowly starting to hyperventilate. "There's no way I would make this kind of mistake."
I got snapped out of it when there was a knock on my door. "Katsuki? Are you ok?"
"I'm fine!" I called back, my voice shaking.
"You don't sound fine. Can I come in? Please?" Hitoshi asked. I got up as fast as I could and threw the pregnancy tests into the trash can. I cleaned up my face a little bit to try and make it look like I hadn't been crying before walking into my room and to the door.
   I unlocked the door and cracked it open, "What do you want Hitoshi?"
"I- I wanted to come see if you were ok. You just kind of blew Eijiro and I off out of nowhere so I wanted to check on you." Hitoshi started, "Have you been crying? What's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong, I just want to be alone for a while." I replied, starting to close the door on Hitoshi.
Hitoshi stuck his hand in the door, preventing me from closing it. "Katsuki, please. I just want to know what's wrong."
"Hitoshi-"
"Don't tell me that there's nothing wrong, I can tell you're lying to me." Hitoshi said.
I sighed, stepping away from the door to let Hitoshi in. "Can we at least talk about it later? I don't think I can right now." I told him as I sat down on my bed.
Hitoshi closed the door behind him, looking over at me and giving me a soft smile. "Yeah, sure, as long as you tell me at some point. Anything I can do to help at least?"
   "Can you just hold me for a little bit? Please?" I asked, tears starting to fall down my face.
   Hitoshi walked over and sat down on the bed next to me, putting his arms around me and pulling me close. Hitoshi slowly rubbed my back as I gripped onto him, crying into his shirt. "Take as much time as you need Kat, let it out." I clung onto Hitoshi until my tears finally stopped falling, taking in the feel of his arms around me, knowing that this may be one of the last times I ever feel it.