Anamnesis of a Love's Eclipse (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 16

ZILLA

I fell asleep without my notice last night, drained from the overwhelming weeping that was streaming down my face. And I must fess up that there were instances when I desperately wish I would just not wake up. Nonetheless, I recounted that the realms as a whole needs my help and support. They need me.

Hence it dawned to me though that perhaps, indeed, this one will definitely hurt for a little while or perhaps even a lot longer, I'm not able to say. It's even possible that the pain will never go away. But I need to compose myself whereas a lot of individuals' lives are in my fingers. Situations like these do not and should not take away my time.

I remembered that, like it was before, I really should have merely adhered to my notion of having no room for love and no intentions to make room for any of it. Nevertheless, it is not to be repeated anymore henceforth. I am partially or perhaps completely shutting my doors. So, no one else could end up harming me like this ever again.

I breathed out a heavy sigh as I drew in my sights. I've been wandering aimlessly throughout the Herst Keep Palace's winter forest since early morning, attempting to ease my mind and make myself cheerful. I considered going to the seashore, but I figured Aella would follow me there right away. So, I came here because I wanted to be alone for a while.

Walking down here makes me think that perhaps my feet brought me here because in the olden days, it was an oblivion of a sea that stood as my gateway, my miracle. I used to go there to de-stress every time I felt like I was about to burst into flames. I used to go there because it was the perfect option for me to vividly remember some good old times. I used to go there to watch the sun fade whilst listening to the waves' soothing murmur. Tragically, I'm not sure exactly what happened, but that place no longer heals my soul. That place doesn't make feel like I'm in my own home anymore.

The tragedy was that the oceans, which were once my resting place, drowned me in unhappiness. The firefly's glint, which once promised a glimpse of hope, has gone out. In that kind of utopia, such captivating peonies would no longer be the perfect home for that butterfly. The mellifluous breezes were no longer sensed.

And from yesterday, I realized that perhaps we weren't each other's destination because we both dragged with us bizarre musings and emotions we couldn't keep.

"Aella—"

I was caught off guard and just couldn't continue my statement when I snagged a dagger which was whirling around and nearly wounded me. I was ready to lose it when the dagger morphed into some kind of rose flower, leaving me feel a whole lot better.

"Are you waiting for me?"

I whirled around to see if my senses were completely right, and I didn't even realize it until I saw him in front of me that my lips were beaming.

"You should have been resting; why have you been out here, freezing in the middle of winter?" He remarked, flinging a cloak over my shoulders.

I had no idea what this emotion was or what it meant. Nevertheless, I found myself sprinting towards him and embracing him close.

"I didn't get the chance to thank you for protecting me that night, but now I do. Thank you." I murmured.

Definitely, the man with the mask would be the last choice on my mind at the moment now. But I'm not sure why his appearance does provide me emotional support at instances.

He muttered, "I wasn't able to protect you back then, but I'll do my best to protect you now."

I just do not seem to comprehend what he's expressing, but I felt him embracing me back. I was also surprised to know that his gentle embrace could somehow calm my inner feelings. Though this is the first time I've been this close to him, it feels like home.