ALISSA'S POV
I gape over at his resting body and a mixture of emotions rush over me. Desperately, I try to uncover how I feel about all of this. I should feel glee right? This is what I have always wanted. To be with him. But what if I'm just another one of his toys, his experiments? What if he's using me to see if he is actually over Mads? I suddenly have the urge to throw up.
And looking back at him once again, I am forced to scramble out of my comfy position in bed, and quickly throw on some sweats. Before I can think things over, I get the hell out of my room.
I honestly just need a break from this place.
After reaching the last step, I grab the first keys I can find, which happen to be Griffin's Jeep, and leave. I was always told the worst time to drive is when you are over emotional, but fuck that. I would much rather be on the road then at that cursed house right now. As I reverse out of the driveway and speed down the lane, music blaring in my ears, for a second, all my problems float into infinity.
I find a place to park right near a cliff, only the railings protecting me from plummeting and stretch for the door handle, stepping out of the car. As the refreshing breeze hits my lungs, I take my first real breath since being here. Ruining my moment of peace, my phone dings in my pocket. I reach for it, expecting it to be for Jaden. Instead, it's a notification of a past picture, exactly 6 years from this day. Clicking on it, my eyes suddenly begin to blur.
Lighting up my screen shows me, my dad and Griffin by a lake, big nets in hand, wrapping our arms around each other for warmth, dripping with water.
FLASHBACK
"Do we really have to do this?" I question and my dad simply laughs. "It's an annual tradition aşkım" He plays with the ends of my hair.
"Exactly Alissa, and you know what baba says about traditions. They are important for the connection of families." My annoying brother perks, as he starts to take the small nets out of the boat. "And I know this might interfere with you deciding to become a vegetarian for a month, but we always put the fish back remember?" The two were starting to head to the lake, and I followed wearily behind.
I watch as my brother starts to change his shoes into water proof ones, and lean to look at the lake. After seeing my dad creep up behind Griffin, I can already tell what's about the happen.
He picks up Griffin, and throws him into the lake, a squeal escaping his lips. I burst into laughter and hear my dad speak through his fits of giggles, "That is exactly what happens when you stand to close to the edge."
My brother throws up both middle fingers while he swims back. My laughter still hasn't subsided, causing for my dad's attention to drift to me. I try to swat him away as he lifts me up and I crash into the water, having the same fate as my brother.
And as I submerge and climb to my feet, freezing, my dad pulls out a phone and we grab our nets and hug each other while he snaps a photo.
ALISSA'S POV
I stand there sobbing for so long, the sky begins to darken. The sudden memory of my father floods my senses, and all I can do is cry, like a pathetic loser. After some time, I gather my thoughts, and sit on the ledge, staring into the alive city. So many lights illuminating my surroundings and I can't help but admire them.
Once again, my phone dings.
bestie boo grace <3
bestie boo grace <3
hey gal
you
hiya
bestie boo grace <3
hunny wya
you
not at sway why?
bestie boo grace <3
just wondering
if ur not at sway then where are u?
you
at a random road cliff things lmao
bestie boo grace <3
oml what has j done now
you
nothing
i'm just overthinking
bestie boo grace <3
ur literally perfect wdym
you
well i didn't think i would have to do
this over text
but um we kind of hooked up-
bestie boo grace <3
WAIT WHAT
DID I READ THAT RIGHT??
CALL ME RN
I press on the call button, and the second it starts to ring, she pick up.
Alissa/Grace
"Okay I'm stressing out and need therapy."
"Not even a hi? Kids these days."
"Shut the absolute fuck up and tell me what's going on."
"Well I got out of the shower, he was on my bed, and then it just kind of happened."
"Oh my god. You should have given me warning, this is too much to process."
"Calm down."
"Don't tell me to calm down. This is a lot to take in."
"Sure girl."
"Wait. So what the hell are you doing on a cliff?"
"When I woke up, I started panicking that he was just using me, or he didn't really love me, or this was all just some stupid joke, so I left-"
"DID YOU JUST SAY WHAT I THINK YOU JUST SAID?"
"What?"
"He said he loved you?"
"Oh...yes I guess he did."
"What did you say? WAIT DID YOU SAY IT BACK?"
"Um, well I didn't say it exactly...but I guess I do? Don't overreact as much as I think you're about to-"
"AND YOU DIDN'T THINK TO MENTION YOUR UNDYING LOVE TO AN IDIOTIC ROCKSTAR TO ME? DID YOU JUST HAPPEN TO FORGET?"
"Calm down. The only time you ever gave me a descriptive feelings about Bryce were when you were drunk. So take a few breathers and come back to me when you're ready."
"I thought this couldn't get more crazy and you have somehow managed it."
"Don't be dramatic."
"So what in the hell are you going to do about the mess you've created."
"I have no fucking idea."
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hi baes how are you all?
ignore the fact that i haven't posted since like 2021 or sm
i clearly have some issues
anyways
again a short chapter bc i'm hungry and don't want to add anymore
we only have a couple chapters left before i can do regular human things once again
so enjoy whatever this fanfic has become lmao
~kay
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