The whole night I kept thinking about what I could have said that made him this angry, trust me I have seen him going ballistic but he had hurt in his eyes along with anger which is not a good combination at all. It was 10 in the morning when I finally decided I can't keep laying down so I went to shower after covering ashi and manik and placing pillows beside ashi.
I felt horrible knowing I ruined the moment, I wondered if it's becasue I talked about Disha becasue there was nothing else that I remember saying that could have hurt him or made him angry but to my disappointment that was the case
When I came out of the shower, ashi was still sleeping but manik was up so I thought to give it another try, I sat down beside him but for the first time he looked disinterested
"Manik im sorry, I dont even know what I said wrong, please talk to me, I apologize for hurting you and making me angry. Fight with me if you want but please don't stop talking" I said caressing his arm and he moved my hand away form him making me sad
He got up and went towards the bathroom making me sigh, what do I do to make up for it, ohh he loves coffee yes coffee. I quickly went to the kitchen and thankfully no one was up so I made Manik a coffee with a heart on it. I walked back tot he room and saw him setting his hair infant of the dresser
"Im sorry" I mummbled handing him the coffee,
He looked at it for a second and then put it on the table. I thought maybe I could make other efforts through this trip to gain forgiveness but I was wrong.
It has been 7 long long days since that morning or night, the trip has came to an end but manik still hasn't talked to me. He would be fine infant of cabir, navy and ash most of the time, I mean it was an amazing trip especially for ashi because she enjoyed it a lot, but it wasn't good fro me becasue Manik wasn't talking to me
The trip was supposed to relax me but I am more tense and stressed than I came here with, and it was all my fault. Everyday I tried making little efforts and asked him to forgive me every single day but he didn't say a single word to me unless ashi was involved in the conversation
We are back home now, and I just put ashi to sleep. Manik came out of the shower and grabbed his pillow and blanket but I honestly had enough, seven days is a freaking long time.
"Manik I seriously have had enough please, punish me if you want but please talk to me" I said holing his arm
"Let go" he said
"No I won't please Manik" I said taking the pillow and blanket from his hands and putting it on our bed
"Let go of my arm" he said again
"Please manik, why are you doing this to me"
"To you, to you" he laughed sarcastically
"Yes to me, to us" I said
"There is no us, that's for sure especially after that night"
"What do you mean manik, what have I done just tell me please" I pleaded
"What the fuck do you want me to say huh that my own god damn wife things I'm a fucking horny teenager who has desires and needs he needs to go out for, fuck" he kind of yelled
"Thats not"
"Ya thats not what you meant but thats what you said so leave my fucking arm and let me be" he said jerking my arm and I couldn't help but tear up at how my rambling got me in trouble
I slowly let go of his arm and grabbed the pillow and blanket in my arms, I could feel his gaze on me to see what I was doing
"Sleep on the bed, ill go in ashi's room, I have some designs to work on too, goodnight" I said and dropped the pillow and blanket not he couch walking to ashi's room
I grabbed my sketch book from my bag and slid down against the bed, looking at the view, it looked beautiful, the stars and moon were shining so bright. It reminded me of the day before granny passed away
She told me that every time I look up in the sky, I will see her, she said the brightest star in the sky will be her being happy and proud of me. I miss her a lot, I wish I could talk to her about this stupid rambling situation cause I'm stupid
'Nandini shut up and just focus, these designs are due in a few days and you haven't even started, just shut your mind and focus' I said to myself,
I grabbed my phone and plugged in my headphone, and started sketching. Music calms me down when I am feeling stressed or upset, well ashi does it too haha, she is my little magic bundle, she always tries making jokes to make me happy
I got so busy in sketching that I didnt even realize it was morning until the stupid alarm blazed in my ear almost destroying my ear drum. I quickly got up and walked into our room, not even sure if is should call it our room anymore because there is no us right
Chuckling at my own miserable situation, I walked in and saw Manik and ashi cuddling making me smile, I took a picture of them because with my freaking fate you never know when ill lose them both. I showered and quickly prepped the ingredients to make some breakfast
Before I started cooking I went back into our room and sat beside ashi who was sleeping so peacefully but she gets really moody and upset when she sleeps longer so I caressed her face
"Baby wakey wakey" I said kissing her cheeks and she woke up right away
"Good morning Mumma"
"Morning my beautiful baby, how are you" I asked as she sat up and put her head on my chest
"Im good, how are you mumma" she asked as I carried her to the bathroom for a shower
"Im also good, guess what im making for my baby" I asked her as I give her a shower
"Paranta" she asked and I nodded making her squeal
Once I was done giving her the shower I took her downstairs and put her in her little chair and turned the tv on. I gave her some milk till then becasue I had to wake up Manik too
"Baby ill just go wake up papa then ill make you paranta okay" I said and she nodded
I walked in our room and saw him laying on his back, it made me smile seeing how messy his hair gets when he sleeps
"Manik, its almost 10 and you have a meeting at 12 so get up" I said standing beside the bed
"Manikkkk" this man sleeps like a rock too, it would be easier to touch him and wake him up but I don't want him getting angry at me that too in the morning
"Manik" I yelled this time and he opened his eyes
"What" he said rudely
"Meeting at 12 remember" I said and he sat up rubbing his eyes
He grabbed his phone from the side table and I walked back to the kitchen to start cooking for ashi
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Forced to be his
RomanceShe is the sweetness in the coffee while he is the bitter coffee. She walks in his life being helpless but will she be able to make room for herself in his life or will she end up being hurt? He is like a coconut, soft on the inside and hard cold o...
