Uncontrollable Heart Book 2 (Poetry) (Journaling)

Seen As Insane

Written about, Alex, Michael, William and rose.

No one believes me anyways
So why bother telling the same story again and again
It's not that simple to hear the truth about family
But isn't it better to listen than to straight up ignore it
We both know what happened
They lie to you guys and suddenly I'm the one who's insane

No your right, I must be insane for telling the truth
To the likes of you that is
But your right its better for you if I pretend nothing happened
Though you should know your killing me inside
You tell them your lies like I'm the crazy one
To bad their blinded by their love for you guys or they'd see

I thought you'd admit to what you've done
But boy was I so wrong to think that
You played me like a fool
Made me think you'd right your wrong
How I couldn't have been further from the truth of it all
You fooled me and them with your deceit

I'm not delusional for what you admitted to doing to me
She may believe your half-truth but the whole truth will come to light one day
I pray for your souls tonight if you have any
Go ahead beat me down till I can't breathe to keep the truth hidden behind a cloak
I'm so sorry for how you feel inside, not
I mean maybe I've just been conditioned but you used me

I'm not looking for someone to hold my hand
I'm looking to make you suffer how you three made me suffer
I mean you might get burned but oh well
So don't go spewing your damn lies to every listening ear
And don't get addicted
Because now you will get down on your knees and beg for my forgiveness

For you I suppose I was your entertainment
But for me you were my deepest darkest secret I wish I didn't have
I mean I guess I'm okay now
But I'm running out of things to do to distract myself from the memories
You used me and I let you
And I know what we did wasn't imaginary like you all say
Because I still feel guilty and ashamed for letting you use me so

I mean you should know you have me seen as insane
You do know were both to blame
For what happened between us all those years ago
But you still think your okay
I hope you one day learn to feel shame and guilt for what you guys did
I mean you put me through hell making me feel like it's all my fault

I mean do you really think you'll get away with those lies
But don't worry they'll some day come to the surface whether you like it or not
You'll die inside won't you?
If the world ever finds out what you guys did to me when I was a child
Don't worry you'll be paying for what ya'll did just not by me
Because I give up but lady karma never forgives or forgets that easily
So I'd be worried if I were you
Because of the lies you told I'm now seen as insane