Uncontrollable Heart Book 2 (Poetry) (Journaling)

Just Let It Out

Selfish monster is what I always was
I say I understand but do I?
I did this to myself
Its all my fault no matter what I do

I wish I could have known better
Because they say I can cry now
And nobody's made to hold it all together
That I should let it out

But I wish I could disappear
And I hope to never be a burden again
So I'm sorry I lost hope
Just know I tried my best

Now I'm gonna put some distance between us
Because Its never safe
That's why I never share
They lie and say there's freedom now

And I should Let my walls fall down
But I'm just suffocating
And the world never changes
So why do I just hurt them

I mean I killed them didn't I?
So why do I go to them always
Because I want to just rest
And I hate my story

I wish they'd never judge
That's why I feel I should have kept it in
So I tell them don't let them know
But feel Its ok to let it out

And I'm just hurting so much
Which is why I wanna feel numb
So Just let me go
Because I don't know why I do it

Plus somehow I'm always too much
Thats why I ask, why am I so weak?
I always overthink everything
So Just let me rest for good