Paradise Is Here

Thena & Hela (Like The Old Days VIII)

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Warm water came pouring down Ambrosia's body and missing her tied hair. A good, warm shower usually relaxes her. Though this time, her problems couldn't just be washed over by some water, her body was somewhat tensed and a frown on her face that seems to be set in stone

At that moment, she felt like the water wasn't even water. To her, it felt like it was some kind of heavy and thick liquid that was hard to get out of, that weigh she was feeling was guilt and regret

She grabbed the pink loofah that was hanging on the wall and added the body soap she uses and quickly scrubbed it on her body. Instead of the normal gentle and calming sensation she used to feel, she scrubbing so hard and roughly that her skin was beginning to turn red, irritating her skin

The loofah was then thrown to the wall out of rage and the smell of lavender filled her nostrils, something that always calms, now becomes nauseous to her. Feeling squeamish and the sudden feeling like there's something in her throat made her hurriedly exit the shower and knelt down in front of the toilet, opened the lid and vomited heavily

She could feel her throat burning that was also somehow affecting her chest because she threw up nothing, but her stomach acids as she didn't eat anything for breakfast and lunch, and hasn't been eating a lot lately. When the vomiting had stopped, she flushed the toilet and found herself staring inside the toilet water. For a moment, her head went quiet with only one question to ask herself:

"Why did I do it?"

It was the first time she asked herself that question. In the past few days, her mind was being cruel to her, calling her horrible names and saying mean things to the point where she couldn't even teach the students correctly or grade the papers correctly

Not to mention, Thena. Ambrosia has been so ashamed by what she had done that she couldn't even say 'good morning' to her, and whenever she'd look at Thena all she's want to do was run away and slap herself for being so unfaithful towards Thena, and it was clear that Thena had noticed the sudden change in Ambrosia

"Why did I do it?"

The question popped in Ambrosia's head again. She wanted to say because she was blinded by lust and the figure of Hela just really turned her on, but it was more than that. That day, she felt all the same things she felt when she was with Thena

In affairs, usually the person who was having an affair with someone is either they do it for sexual desires or they found a better person to be with. However, that isn't the case for Ambrosia, she didn't do it with Hela because of lust nor did she do it because she found Hela to be better than Thena. She doesn't exactly know how to answer that one question in her head, but hopefully, she could answer it in the near future

After the shower, she dried herself and put on her night wear and exited the bathroom. As she was about to enter her room she stopped when she heard Thena speak "Can I sleep with you tonight?"

Ambrosia didn't reply immediately and slowly took a glance over at Thena who was six feet away from her and had a small smile. The shame grew larger that was within her

"How did I become so unfaithful to her?"

"Um...not today, I have a lot on my mind right now...I'm afraid I just might be tossing and turning all night...and it would bother you..." Ambrosia said while not making eye contact with Thena

"Oh...okay, good night then..." Ambrosia didn't say a word and just nodded. Although, she was not looking at Thena, she could feel that her smile had faded away

Ambrosia shut the door behind her and her body gave in to itself on the bed, and her assumption of tossing and turning all night was correct, she didn't get a good minute of sleep until 5 in the morning