The promise

Part 17

I screwed up last night, big time and I wish I could take it back. I have never felt that loopy from drinking ever before. My tolerance of alcohol is high, but yesterday made me not think clearly. I kissed Brad in front of Mason. I screwed up and he still took care of me, but I know it's bad, because he couldn't even bring himself to kiss me. He also wants to force me to come out publicly. I have picked him and that is enough for now.

I am strong. I have been bullied and it made me grow a tougher skin, but I refuse to enter that superficial and judgement world. I refuse to be associate with people who choose to treat other human beings with such low respect. Who are willing to tear each other apart for short term gratification. I walked down his street and call a cab. I will just add our fight and possibly breakup as part of my shitty weekend. Breakup? Was I ever his girlfriend? I need my friends someone to tell me I am not making a mistake.

I quickly send a text to kim and Jenny to meet up at a Ville Cafe later in the evening.

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"I need to tell you girls something." I tell kim and Jenny

"Spit it out already!" Jenny shouted, taking a sip of her Italian soda.

"I think me and Mason Troy..are are dating....were dating." I said taking a huge bite of my coffee cake.

"Umh, what was that?" Jenny said, clearly not understanding what I said. Kim heard it though

"You bitch, you didn't tell us till now. Everybody is having sex, but me." She shouted.

"What? who? I am so lost." Jenny said.

"I was not sure what was going on between us. We aren't having sex, just maybe dating." I said, looking at kim. Why is she being like this.

"Since, when?" Kim ask and Jenny is still lost.

"Bonnie party." I take a large sip of my drink. Jenny hits the table. "Shut the fuck up both of you and tell me what you are talking about."

"Jesus, Jenny you almost spilled my drink." Kim shouted at her. I am sure the whole cafe is looking at us, but I am not going to look up to check. "She is dating or think she is dating Mason."

"Well We never made it official or anything, but it felt like I was."

"Amira, really!? Mason Troy? Like from school?"

"Yes that one." I reply.

Score!" She squealed

"Ok, please explain." Kim said, more calmly.

"Well" I take a breath "When he drove me home from Bon party he flat out said he was interested in me. I told him I was not interested in joining his world and that he should leave me alone. We didn't talk for a week, then he asked me on a date. I hesitated at first, but then decided yes. We went skating, we talked and we kissed. It was so perfect. I was so happy. I got butterflies in my stomach. I told him we had to take it slow and he agreed. After the whole ass thing with his friends. I stop talking to him. He kept texting me apologizing, but I wasn't having any of it. We got in a fight about C.J to add to the whole ass thing and when I showed up at his house to work on our project we ended up making up and making out. I meet his mom and sister, then me and him had a mini dinner date. It was going great until I messed up."

"Messed up, how?" Kim asked.

"Bonnie invited me to a little party at her house on Saturday. First she sends Brad to pick me, then she is awol the whole time leaving me stuck with Brad. I was drinking and we ended up in the hot tub. Out of nowhere Mason shows up and then Bonnie dared me with that stupid truth or dare game to let Brad kiss me. I was going in for a light kiss on the cheeks, but he kiss kiss me and shoveled his tongue down my mouth.