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C/n PoV
I messed up . I know she hates me , I hate myself . I struggle with my emotions so much . I wish didn't hurt her , she my best friend , we just got married recently , how I'm already not promising my vows .
I grab my car keys and I go to club , I know if I go to work I be harassed with questions about her and honestly I don't want to go over the conversation.
I hurt her too much. I didn't cheat . I know how she feels about certain subjects I blew it up all her face . The whiskey is not hitting , all I think about is her dancing around our bathroom , making in love bathtub were we both sigh in content and coming back from stress from day to see her h/c all over the pillow as she slept peacefully, I loved admiring her .
I decide to go back to our house to see her wedding dress hanging up in my closet making my eyes start to tear up.
Y/n PoV
I twist my marriage ring around my finger , laying in hotel room on the other side of the world lying on the window still .
2 days ago
"Your such an idiot" he chuckles angrily
"I'm an idiot I don't come back to love of my life being mad for miss placing your files"
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA , THIS WHY YOU NEED TO STAY OUT OF MY STUFF , YOUR SO TIRING"
"ARE YOU TIRED OUT BY ME " I ask trying not cry
"YESS ,Votre ennuyeuse" ( your annoying)
"I'm annoying and idiot , cool"
"You think your smart for repeating what I just said"
"NO I WANTED YOU TO KNOW HOW DUMB YOU SOUND"
"Y/n did you ever stop talking , I came back home and all you do is pick up is argument, sometimes , I question why I am married to you"
I felt my eyes get teary , I was already feel down and struggling .
"Okay fine , I'm going , I be out of your way , I won't tire you out anymore , I won't be here next time you come back from set"
"What do you want me to say"
"YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN NOT , YOUR NOT ONLY ONE THAT IS STRESS , YOU ACT LIKE IT IS ONLY YOU SUFFERING , YOUR MEANT TO HELP ME BUT YOUR BREAKING ME " shout while crying
I could see his eyes tear up and I could tell he regretted it , I got my stuff started packing few things he watched me pack he looked so numb tears kept falling his eyes I don't want he wanted to me do , "y/n" he whispered "mon amour"
"No , I'm done" I told him looking in bags I know if I looked in his e/c I crave him and of course I do but I respect myself and him slightly to put us on break
I got my stuff as I headed out the door and I saw his tears dropping on to T-shirt , I have never seen him cry this much
Back to now
His family reached out and I answered knowing I was breaking not knowing if I was still breathing , I knew he cared but I can't keep be disrespected .
I stayed in my hotel enjoying watching my favourite shows over and over again eating ice cream , ignoring my phone and I saw his 20 messages and 30 voicemails .
I decided to listen to one and ended up crying on last one "I know why I married you because you made me better person , loved me deeply , I was ungrateful and I hate myself for hurting you and I know your mad that I said I hate myself but y/n you did nothing wrong , I am meant to be there for you , your depression got worse and I'm pushing you way because of my own mental health issues when only person who can understand me is broken because I can't help making things worse , I know your crying somewhere and I can't hug you , I caused it , I don't know how to fix it , I love you more than anything and I am sorry" he sniffled
I threw my phone on the otherside we should go see therapist but I don't know what i am going to say to him .
6 hours later
Knock knock
I go up to my door look at my peephole and as I open it I see disheveled and anguish familiar face still as pretty through the mess he just looks into my eyes and I see him sigh just thought of me as I invite him
"Hey"
"Hey"
