Her lips; an ART

Chapter 1

The life I have right now is not something that I would want to experience if ever multiverse and reincarnation are real. I was miserable... too young to fully understand what is it like to have a broken family. Broken marriage with a broken trust... so much pain all at such a young age.

When asked, 'was it really hard not having both of your parents while growing up?' or 'how are you surviving each day without your mom?'. Believe me I was never been that silent in my life. It's like I lost the ability to talk, to be able to utter a single word. Life is just so cruel to me. It gave me the opportunity to exist but too soon to snatch away my ability to live.

"Pa, saan tayo pupunta?" I asked as soon as I saw him packing our things.

He looked at me, sad and in pain. I saw it. For the first time in my life I was able to describe how a person feels just by seeing them.

"La Union, vacation" tipid niyang tugon.

I tried so hard to think about my memories that I have in that place. I got none. It was mostly blurry scenarios, defining how young I was when I last visited that place.

"How about mom?" I innocently asked.

Most of my moms' things are not here anymore. I don't know where it went or who took them. All I know is that my family isn't doing well anymore. It wasn't working.

"Susunod siya nak," he responded. Looking away, I know he doesn't want me to talk about my mom or anything that involves her.

I nodded my head silently praying that whatever happens I am my parent's only daughter. I've heard how people started gossiping about my mom's cheating and my dad's begging of another chance. I know the moment I turn my back on them they would start mocking and judging me and criticizing how a perfect family shatters slowly just because two people got tired of each other.

My cousins were crying with me as I stand in the side of the road waiting for the bus. I have no idea what will happen next but I hope I can still call my mom a 'mom'.

"Wait, are you even listening?" Joy snapped at me.

I blinked and took a sip on my milk tea, shrugging off her sentiments. She's been so noisy ever since we came back from our last subject. We're currently waiting for our last professor to arrive. Gosh! I hate waiting. Especially kung wala lang din naman akong maiintindihan sa isang tao.

"Aren't you aware that you're noisy? My ears kinda hurt na."

Inirapan niya ako, "Ang arte mo! Akala mo may jowa" she rolled her eyes again. Palibhasa sanay na sanay sa pagpapatirik ng mata. Pssh!

"Atleast hindi ako tumatawag sa mga kaibigan asking for some advice and then ended up getting back to his ex. Duh! Single ako pero I don't cry for some stupid guy" I tsked.

Napa-aray ako nung hampasin niya ng malakas ang aking balikat. This bitch is seriously so abusive. I glared at her but she only stuck out her tongue.

"Magbabago naman na daw tsaka he gave me flowers kanina and cooked me breakfast," she dreamingly put her chin in her palm while looking at her boyfriend seated in front.

"Ugh! Such a red flag," I murmured.

Natapos ang klase na rinding rindi ako sa bunganga ng kaibigan ko. Natahimik lang ang buhay ko nung makauwi ako. I did everything including household chores and my tasks. I went to my room already wearing my pj's. I didn't even bother eating my dinner. I realized I lost my appetite. Ganito naman ako palagi, walang gana sa gabi. Halos tubig lang ang laman ng tiyan. To make it short I don't live healthy.