˚₊⁀꒷₊˚︰𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐮𝐫 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥 ₊

Chapter XIV: Sunny to Rainy.. to Cloudy.. to Nothing..

TW: this chapter contains descriptive gore and slight mentions of suicide. nonetheless, enjoy the angst and blood!!!
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Sunny's name didn't match his personality so much like it did before.. his world wasn't so bright. He wasn't so carefree. Sunny's perspective of life was dark and empty. There wasn't a point to succeed in life if there was no meaning to it.

Everyday felt the same to him. Wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, lunch, then nothing. Repeat and rinse. Sunny had always been so bored of it since he already had the smarts so why study more useless information that you'll never use again in life?

Most of his classmates were always in awe of his efforts despite never studying or paying much attention in class at all, which explains why most of his classmates voted him to be apart of the student council.

Sunny thought him being apart of the student council was a good thing because he thought he could finally be more active in the community! But, he was wrong. Turns out being apart of the Student Council is more boring than ever.

Maddy and Denise were both the leaders of the student council but, when Maddy died and Denise stopped planning the meetings, no one knew what to do. Vincent was also gone so now it was only Sunny, Jianhao, Debbie and Nicole.

"What do we do?! We're low on members and we don't even have a leader-! How are we gonna operate..!?" Nicole said in a panic. "Well we can't take the role of the leader that just isn't right!" Said Jianhao.

"I guess this group will just have to disband-?" Suggested Debbie. The three then started explaining and arguing on why that was a terrible idea, leaving Sunny sitting there while he stared in disappointment. 'At least when it's disbanded I can go back staring at the walls..' Thought Sunny.

Sunny had started spacing out and was thinking about what could be missing in him. Because deep down, all he wanted was to be free, to just smile one bit. He knew the real him was trapped inside. He just needed to find him.

Suddenly, Jianhao called out for Sunny and asked him if he had any other suggestions for the student council. Sunny was startled, but he just gave Jianhao a cold empty stare in response. "..I-I'll just- think of something else..!" Said Jianhao as he quickly stepped away from Sunny.

'God.. why'd I do that instead of saying something..? But, I would've agreed with Debbie either way.' Sunny sighed and he got up from his seat, and walked out of the room as Jianhao, Nicole and Debbie continued arguing.

He was annoyed by their pointless arguments and statements because in the end, the group would disband either way because of their disagreements. They were just too blind to see it so quickly.

In fact, it seemed everyone was just as brainless as those three. They all seemed interested in the same thing. Studying, test results and wanting to impress others in which he found rather useless.

When he got to his floor, he walked to his dorm and unlocked the door to see Cornelius pinning a butterfly down and Tyler laying on his bed. Sunny ignored him and just sat down on the floor, staring at the wall, thinking.

He knew Cornelius was focused on the butterfly so he wouldn't be bothered or questioned.. 'What could be missing.. where is.. Sunny-? Who am I..? Someone who isn't Sunny... a stranger stuck in his body?'

Feelings started rising.. feelings that he has never felt or expressed before such as anxiety.. he felt slightly panicked by the thought that 'Sunny' was forever trapped in his mind and couldn't be saved!

Sunny's anxiety grew to the point where he started saying his thoughts out loud. "Sunny is.. me-? No... he can't be.. I'm not... where.." He started having an existential crisis. He didn't know if he was real or just a robot...