You're too Good for Me

Eighteen

YOUR POV

I can't sleep. I keep thinking I made a mistake by leaving Jack at the alter. I'm currently sleeping on the sofa at Scott and Chloe's house so Winnie could have the bed in the guest room because the nursery is set up.

- Chloe : Why're you up?

- y/n : Should I call him? Say I'm sorry?

- Chloe : You're as bad as my little sister and she's 17. No, don't call him. You're a grown woman and you seem pretty interested in certain someone else you asked to kiss you

- y/n : I don't want to disrupt her life. We haven't really spoken since we kissed

- Chloe : You should speak to her tomorrow then

- y/n : Mhm. Why're you up?

- Chloe : Baby is using my bladder as a stress ball.

Of course. Winnie was bad at that. Especially for the last few weeks. She had her elbow in my bladder the whole time, it was so painful and I needed to pee every two seconds.

- Winnie : Morning Mom. Uncle Scott is making pancakes for breakfast

- y/n : I can smell them

- Winnie : When can we go home?

- y/n : Remember what we spoke about last night. I'm not going home. I'm going to find a new house and then I'll live there. You'll spend a week with me and then a week with your Dad. How does that sound?

- Winnie : What if I accidentally leave something with Dad or with you? Then what happens?

- y/n : We'll worry about that when it comes to it. Go get some breakfast bug. I need to get ready for work

I'm just hoping to make it to my office without being noticed. I want to feel normal at work.

- Arizona : Y/n? You in here?

- y/n : No

- Arizona : We're coming in

- Callie : You look like shit

- Lexie : Callie!

- y/n : Thanks

- Arizona : What happened yesterday? You ran way from your wedding

- y/n : Yep

- Callie : Good on you. I support your choice. Marry a woman although they aren't great

- Arizona : Hey!

- Callie : You cheated on me

- Arizona : Like 8 years ago!

You ever sit there and feel nothing? It's all I can do. I stare at a wall, feeling nothing. Callie and Arizona are being chaotic and all I can do is feel nothing.

- Lexie : Are you okay?

- y/n : I don't know

- Lexie : Do you want us to go?

- y/n : It's up to you

- Mark : Torres, Robbins. Stop arguing. We're leaving. You know where we are if you need us Jones

I made a mistake. Why did I leave him? I had it good. I had a family, a healthy child, a fiancé, a house, a job. I had everything I have ever wanted but now I don't know. I don't want to be an adult. I don't want all this pressure on me.

- Amelia : How was the wedding?

- y/n : Nice one

- Amelia : What? Did something happen?

- y/n : Didn't you hear? I left him at the alter. I'm yet to see him

- Amelia : You left him?

- y/n : Yep. I don't really know why so there's no point asking

- Amelia : Does this have anything to do with-

- y/n : With us kissing? Yes but I was a dick and I had a great life so I don't know why I left him

I was expecting this. I wasn't expecting Jack to burst in but I was expecting to have this conversation with Amelia.

- Jack : What was yesterday all about? 'You can't do this'.It hasn't exactly been easy for me either

- y/n : Jack please

- Jack : And your texts. 'Let me go' How the fuck am I supposed to do that? I've known you for so long, we have a kid together

- y/n : A kid who told me as long as we're both happy she doesn't mind. Winnie wants us to be happy and the only way I can be happy is if I get out of our relationship

- Jack : So it's my fault?

- y/n : Stop putting words in my mouth. We aren't good for each other. The arguments, the ultimatums. I couldn't go into a marriage full of ultimatums and conditions.

- Jack : Do you mind?

- Amelia : Y/n?

- y/n : She can stay

Amelia is my friend, I want her here. For my comfort. Jack is upset and I feel like I don't really know him.

- Jack : What am I supposed to do now? What about Winnie?

- y/n : We alternate weeks. I'll take her this week and you can have her next week. Same with holidays. You can have this Christmas and New Year, I'll have Easter and Halloween then we'll switch next year. Her birthday will be shared. I'll have her in the morning, you can have her in the afternoon

- Jack : Are we seriously doing this?

- y/n : It wasn't going to work for us. I know that now, it just took time for me to be able to see it

- Jack : There's nothing I can do? Couples therapy?

- y/n : I'm sorry. If I could do it without hurting you then I would

I didn't mean for it to turn out this way. It wasn't my intention. I just want to be happy

- Amelia : Are you okay? That was intense

- y/n : I want a minute where I can feel sad without being judged. I know I left him but he was in my life for so long and now it's completely changed

- Amelia : Then have a minute. I'll it here with you. You can be sad and you can be as angry as you want

- y/n : I can't ask you for that

- Amelia : You're not on call, you can do what you want

I've made a mistake but I know it's for the best and that things will be okay soon. Amelia told me it was okay to break promises because things will be okay in the end. I will be happy settled down with someone one day. That day just wasn't yesterday and that person wasn't Jack.

Authors Note
Have a drink and a
snack please