VALENTINA

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN.

I know that you'll never feel sorry,for the way I hurt...
*Olivia Rodrigo.

VALENTINA.

"Valantina,what the hell,wait are you crying,"Theo asks nursing his cheek.
He looks at me with assessing eyes but I couldn't care less,I just want to hit him so hard,he forgets my name.

"Why,what did I ever do to you,"I ask my voice breaking with every word.

"What are you talking about,"he asks looking confused,.

"I know everything,Theo I was just a pawn in your wicked game of revenge,"I say poking his chest hard.
He's eyes widen and I can  tell he knows what I'm talking about.

"Val, please let's just talk calmly I ...",.

"Talk about what,Theo so that you can tell me how much  fun you had using  me huh,"I say and more tears fall from my eyes.

"Val..."

"I trusted you,Theo I told you things I never told anyone else and you dragged my trust through the mud,why,"I ask feeling drained.

"Valentina,atleast give me time to explain,"Theo says.

"Explain,what how you used me,you're a betrayer,"I said louder than necessary and I could tell Theo was getting mad.

"I might be the betrayer but don't play innocent Valentina,you're used me as well!,".

"That's a lie!"I defend myself.

"Really,do you need me to remind you,"Theo says walking towards me and I back away but luck is not in my favour as he traps me between the wall and himself.

"Get away from me,"I warn him but he doesn't badge.
He lifts my chin up and I'm looking directly into his blue eyes.
"Theo leave me ...,"I start.

"Tell me who you were thinking of the last time,you kissed me,"he says in a low voice.
I feel chills not from his voice but his piercing gaze.
"Theo let me go,"I say.

"You can't even answer the simple question,"he says laughing hysterically."I know you were thinking of him,I know I was just a fucking rebound for Asher,"Theo says and now I realize I'm also a bad guy. He betrayed me and so did I unknowingly.
I'm just as bad as he is.
And even though I'm playing the victim card,I realize we are both victims of our selfish  desires.
"You don't know the whole truth Valentina,but even though you think I betrayed,you atleast I have the audacity to say that I like you,atleast I did, somewhere between the dance and classes,I began to genuinely like you,but it's pointless now even if I explain my truth,you've already painted me to be the bad guy,so right here right now I'm ending whatever we had,you're free to go love a boy whose crazy about another girl,I won't get in your way,"Theo says and lets me go.
Everything that Theo has said to me,feels like the truth slapped me in the face.
He is right,I'm just as bad as him,.
You're free to love a boy, who's crazy about another girl.
He struck a nerve ,a very painful one,he's words shouldn't hurt but they do.
Theo looks at me one more time before walking away.
And it feels like,he's not only walked away from me,but from my life as well.

I like you, atleast I did.

"Valentina,it's going to be fine,"Bree says hugging me.
After my argument with Theo,I went to Bree's room and spilled my guts to her, about everything.

"I'm a bad person,"I sob onto her shoulder,.

"No you're not,"Bree says,"hey look at me,"she says.
I sit up to look at her,and she smiles at me.

"Do you remember the first time I was heartbroken,"Bree asks me wiping my tears.
Of course I did,we never slept that week because Bree cried all week long,and she's was a mess.

"Yah,"I sniffle.

"Do you want to know what I learnt,"she asks tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear.
I nod.

"Rejection hurts but it's normal,at one point of our lives we will realize you can't force anyone to love you,but that doesn't mean you aren't good or that the other person is bad,it's part of life,you're gonna have to get  your heart broken a couple of times to find the right one,and when you do it will be worth it,even though he probably won't be your first love but I promise you he'll make all other loves irrelevant,okay,"Bree says wiping another tear.

"When did you get so wise,"I attempt to joke.
Bree reaches us and hugs me.
And it's times like these where I know,I'm not alone I've got best friends I could always count on.

"I'll be fine right,"I ask Bree.

"You'll be fine, maybe not today or tomorrow but eventually you'll be fine,"she replies.
I believe her, even though everything hurts like hell,I'm sure I'll be fine.
Eventually.

I pull away from Bree and before I can say anything,I hear a knock.
"I'll get it,"Bree says getting off the bed.
She walks over to the door,in one swift motion.

"Asher,"she says surprised when she opens the door.
"You're aren't supposed to be here,"Bree says challengingly

"I just want to talk to Valentine,"I hear Him say.

"She's not in a good state right now, maybe later,"Bree says.

"Bree...,"Asher starts.

"Bree,it's fine I'll talk to him,"I say getting up.

"Are you sure,?"Bree asks.

"I'll have to talk to him eventually,might as well be now,"I say forcing a smile.

"Fine,but if he makes you cry again,I'll deal with him personally,"Bree says pointing at Asher.

I smile at her and walk out.
I find Asher there and he looks disheveled.
His hair is messy,his eyes look tired.

"Let's talk by the sports field,"I say not looking at him.
I begin walking out,and I hear footsteps follow suit.

Maybe not today or tomorrow but eventually you'll be fine.

I really hope Bree is right.