SURPRISES | Draco Malfoy

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The rest of the summer break was fine. I went to the Malfoy's. Draco and I only got a few hours of sleep every night. We were talking about so many things that we just lost track of time.

I hadn't read further in the diary. So far I haven't found out mayor secrets. But I kind of don't want to find out big things. I'm considering to read further or stop. I'm curious about my mother, so I guess I'll read later when I'm ready to do so.

We had spent 3 days with our friend group. Mostly just talking, swimming or playing games. It was really fun to see them all again.

I kind of got over Cedric's death. That's a lie. I'm not over it. I haven't forgotten him. And I never will. Seeing his death body on the floor is an image that continues to show in my head. I often talk about it with Draco. Cedric was a good friend of mine, I still can't believe I won't see him in the halls next year.

Right now, I am packing my bags to go back to Hogwarts again. This will be our fifth year. Merlin, the time flew.

I am ready to go back. I am just going to make the best of this year. And I'll continue the diary when I feel like I should.

I sometimes have dreams about my mother. They're mostly about what it would be like if she didn't die. Or her giving me advice. Sometimes they're nightmares. People blaming me for her death. Her being disappointed in me, telling me she never had to sacrifice her own life for hers, etcetera. It hurts. Sometimes it feels like she's in my head. Ever since I opened the diary, I think about what she would think about me and what she would think about the choices I made.

I know I shouldn't think about it so much. She's dead. She can't change anything. Yet I still think about her. I don't know why.

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I am now sitting in the train with Draco. We are still waiting for our friends as the train begins to move.

After a long time they finally find us. During the train ride I sleep on Draco's shoulder. They wake me up when we finally arrived.

END OF FOURTH YEAR