Tears | [BoyxBoy] | English

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I was in pain. I struggled awkwardly as my father's hands moved over my body. My whole body was drenched in sweat and the thought that I was naked made me struggle even more. Standing next to Dad was a rather tall young man. As he approached me, it became clear to me that it was my elder brother Minindu. Under both of their arms, I started to cry loudly, but they didn't respond to it. I screamed as one of dad's fingers entered my body.

I woke up and sat on the bed with that scream. I felt the pain of the dream burn through my body and I was sure that it had happened to me one day. Unable to bear the restlessness and ambiguity in my mind, I frantically jumped out of bed. Yeheni was facing me as soon as I opened the door of my room.

'Why did you scream-' she asked as I held her head in my hands and pressed it against my face. As Yeheni limply crawled into my arms, I pressed her against the wall and began to kiss her. I could not stand the smell of Shanalka coming from her. Biting her lip, I pressed her head further against the wall. Yeheni was pressed against the wall. Her hands tried lifelessly to remove my body from hers, but in an unsuccessful attempt, I lifted her hands and pressed them against the wall. Yeheni began to move. As she tried to hit me with her feet, I reached under her shirt and squeezed her waist.

As soon as I left her body to take a breath, her head fell into my lap. She was crying and said something but I couldn't understand it. I strangled her and pinned her against the wall and bit her exposed chest area. Yeheni moaned as she squeezed my lips. I placed my mouth near the shoulder bone above the left breast that was lost from the surgery she had when she was sixteen years old, and I bit there. I felt unbearable anger when I saw her neck area which was clean and spotless. I felt it was unfair that I was the only one with scars while she was flawless. Gradually bringing my mouth up, I started biting her neck and making scars. I stopped biting and looked at her face and she looked at me with tears in her eyes. Seeing the pleading look in her eyes, I remembered Mehansa looking at me with tears in her eyes. Something came out of Yeheni's lips but I didn't understand it. I stared blankly at her face. I had no trouble seeing Shanalka in her eyes. As I felt the urge to bite Shanalka's lips again, I bit Yeheni's biceps. I felt a strange kind of comfort as her face was covered with red.

I remembered the pain I felt the day I was molested by Sahesh. I remembered how I struggled and tried to get away from him. I asked myself once again under what reason I was the only one suffering that pain, I lifted Yeheni in my arms and placed her on the bed. Yeheni, who was faster than me, pushed herself off the bed, but she couldn't stand up and was pushed into the corner by the wall. Yeheni folded her arms and curled up on the floor as I walked up to her.

'Don't...' I can barely hear her. 'I beg you..'.

Yeheni was literally bowing with folded hands. I did not understand why a smile appeared on my face. Pulling Yeheni's hands from her cut shirt, I rolled her onto the bed. This time I lay on top of her body, not letting her roll over. Yeheni started to struggle but when I tore her shirt she stopped struggling. Glancing at her exposed upper body, I placed my lips on her chest area and started biting her skin. Yeheni had stopped struggling.

I didn't feel like the sheets were messed up.

I did not hear Yeheni cry out in pain.

That night I made her life hell on earth.

*****

When I woke up my head was hurting. I couldn't remember what happened the night before. I was startled when I rolled onto the other side of the bed. Yeheni was lying on the bed next to me. Her whole body was full of red spots and I started trying to figure out what happened. As I sat on the bed I realized everything that had happened. I took the blanket and wrapped it around Yeheni's naked body as I tried unsuccessfully to reconcile everything that had happened during the night. I couldn't tell if she was still asleep or in a sleepy state. I got out of bed, went to the bathroom and turned the temperature of the water bottle to the highest setting, and stood under it. As the temperature of the water burned my skin, I felt relief from the pain. After taking a bath for about fifteen minutes, I went to the kitchen and put the kettle on. Whatever happened the night before, after seeing Yeheni's body, I realized that the mistake I had half-consciously made was unforgivable. Taking the bottle of Nutella from the fridge, I thawed it and made a cup of Nutella, which Yeheni loves, and stepped back towards the room.