Tears | [BoyxBoy] | English

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I woke up again after Sahesh came and woke me up. He asked me if I knew why we were locked in the room.

I shook my head helplessly to say that I knew nothing.

'Oh, man... I sat here last night. I don't even remember what happened until you woke me up.' I told a lie.

Sahesh held his head and sat on the bed complaining that his head hurts a lot. We both waited silently for a while, unable to think of anything to do.

I was locked in a room with my old crush and had to pretend like nothing happened because he didn't even remember me being raped by him.

Suddenly the door of the room opened, startling both of us. Standing by the door was Yeheni with an angry look on her face. She glanced at me and around the room before entering the room.

I tried to stand up, but Yeheni suddenly came forward and slapped Sahesh on the cheek.

I held the window and stood there and watched.

'I hate you Sahesh!' Yeheni yelled while throwing another punch at Sahesh.

'Yeheni...' I tried to get up.

Yeheni treated me with a frantic look and kicks Sahesh in the middle of his legs as he tries to attack her. As he collapsed on the bed Yeheni walked towards me as I was helpless and was unable to imagine what was about to happen.

As I got closer I could see that Yeheni was crying. She pulled me by my neck and pressed me to the bed next to Sahesh without loosening her grip.

I tried to remove her hand from my neck but she held me tight like a mad monster. I was about to say something, but I backed away as a tear rolled down my face from her eyes.

Seeing Yeheni's eyes made me realize that sleeping with Sahesh was my fault when Shanalka loved me so much. I let her squeeze my neck passionately and let my arms go numb and fall to my sides, giving up trying to get her off my body.

Suddenly Yeheni's grip was released from my neck as my vision blurred and everything was about to go dark. I turned on the side of the bed and tried to catch my breath. I felt dizzy and saw everything alternating between black and gray. Due to the taste of blood from the nose to the mouth, I realized that my nose was bleeding.

'Miru...' Shanalka patted my shoulder and I finally felt a way to embrace his warmth. The next moment I was unconscious again.

- I woke up on the bed in Shanalka's room.

At first I couldn't shake my head, but I realized from the voices I heard that Yeheni and Shanalka were talking.

'He wasn't drunk, ayye... I'm sure about that.'

'I still can't believe that Sahesh did something like this.' Shanalka said unsurely.

'If you knew what he did to my Mei Mei...,'

I turned my head and looked at them. Seeing me, Shanalka signed Yeheni to be quiet.

Yeheni looked at me and looked away fast as her eyes met mine. My chest felt heavy as I knew that she is ignoring me on a purpose. Shanalka came and sat on the bed next to me.

'Do you want some water?' he asked placing his hand on my forehead.

I didn't wanted to eat or drink. I stared at him without any response. I felt like I had no right to see Shanalka's smile after all I had done the night before. I really wanted to die at that time.

'Miru...'

I closed my eyes. I didn't want to hurt myself again by staring at him.

I heard Yeheni get up from the chair. She took a deep breath. 'I don't know. I'm going to my room... you... do whatever you want with him.'

'nangi, please understand...'

From the sound of the door closing, I realized that Yeheni had left the room.

I closed my eyes and listened to what Shanalka was doing. As he wet my forehead with a wet cloth, I grabbed the blanket with my fingertips because I couldn't bear it.

'Though we are both boys, Miru, I love you very much. I know I can't take Sahesh's place. But I will never leave you. No reason can stop me from being there for you Miru...'

Tears started to fall from my eyes.

'I love you Miniru.'

As Shanalka moistened my neck, I felt a great sense of relief as the burning sensation slowly subsided.

'Would you like some water? As far as I know, you haven't eaten or drunk since yesterday.'

I didn't utter a word to let him know I was asleep. I didn't need to lie to Shanalka, but I had no other choice.

I heard the sound of Shanalka heaving a long sigh and getting up from the bed, arranging the blanket that had been wrapped around me.

'Call me if you need anything. I'll be around here.'

I opened my eyes after he left the room and closed the door softly. I felt a tightness in my throat.

Guilt gripped my entire body as I replayed the previous night in my mind.

I told myself that Sahesh was not conscious, but I also knew that something was not right. I did not know how Shanalka brought me home. But he cleaned my body and put me in comfortable clothes and made me sleep. I thought that my head was still throbbing from time to time because of the beating Sahesh had given me the night before.

I still couldn't figure out why I fell unconscious in his room. I thought maybe it was because of the coke and the loud noise because I didn't remember me using drugs in any way.

I tried to turn to the other side of the bed but I groaned due to the intense pain that came from my lower half. Having sex three times in a row was painful without a doubt. Besides, I remembered that Sahesh was inhumanly fast.

I started to cry again because the memory of the previous day filled my heart with guilt. My throat was dry and crying only added pain to my heart and soul.

A gentle pat on the head made me stop crying and let the caress control me.

'Sleep Miru..'

It was Shanalka's voice.

His voice could barely soothe me before falling asleep.

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TEARS

2022. 08. 04