Dancing with the Beast

25. I was such an idiot

The next morning I woke up early. I haven't slept that well. I was nervous about my plan talking to Jimmy about what happened between the two of us. I left the bed and took a long and calming shower, trying to sort my thoughts about what I wanted to say to Jimmy. I would tell him that I won't let myself be treated in such a way and that he could fuck off. I want to be able to visit my new friends here again but I couldn't do that without talking to Jimmy about my thoughts and feelings. I left the shower and put on some clothes for the last dancing day before I headed down into the kitchen, starting to brew some coffee for Karl and me. While I was waiting, I opened the fridge to get some yoghurt for breakfast. I cut some fruits too and prepared two bowls. Right in the perfect moment, Karl entered the kitchen. "Morning.", Karl sounded quite tired. „Morning.", I responded and handed him a cup of coffee and one of the breakfast bowls I had prepared for the two of us. „Ready for your talk with Jimmy?", he asked while taking a seat at the counter. „Nope, but I really have to. I need to set my boundaries.", I answered him with a nervous tone in my voice. „You've got this. You will feel much better and relieved after it.", he tried to cheer me up with a smile on his lips. „You are right. It's the best option.", I tried to smile.

We both finished our breakfast and then made ourselves on the way to the warehouse as soon as Chris arrived to pick us up. It was still very early in the morning because Jimmy had to catch his flight to the charity event after our lesson later.
My nervousness increased every inch we headed closer to the warehouse. I hope there will be a good moment to talk about everything with Jimmy. „Don't be nervous, K. Everything will be alright. And if not, Jimmy can fuck off.", Karl said, pointing on my left leg that I was bouncing up and down right now. „Karl is right, everything will be alright.", Chris' voice sounded like he knew something. I slightly got the feeling that it has to do something with Jimmy's and his talk yesterday.

We finally arrived at the warehouse. "Good luck.", Chris patted my shoulder encouragingly as soon as we arrived in front of the dancing room. I could only reply with a forced smile. Karl gave me a cheerful nod and I entered the room. Jimmy was already waiting there for me but he once again was not alone. Tareq and Ethan were packing some stuff in the background. So again there seems to be no possibility for a talk. Hopefully there would be some time later. After I greeted everyone I turned to Jimmy. "Let's go through all the steps you've learned so far. I wanna make sure that you're prepared for your charity dance this evening." Jimmy nodded in response and I turned on some music. I started with the dances in which we didn't have to be very close to each other. He did pretty well for someone who learned all this in just a few days. Sure he wasn't an expert but he managed all the steps well enough.

After an hour of our training Tareq and Ethan left the room with the stuff they were packing and Jimmy and I finally were alone. I head over to my phone to put on my slow waltz playlist to finally train the waltz with Jimmy again. The thoughts of dancing with him closely again nearly drove me crazy and I was really nervous now. "Let's.. uhm try the waltz again.", my voice cracked and I had to clear my throat. We locked our hands and I put the other one on his shoulder while he laid his other one behind my back for the typical waltz pose. We locked eyes as Everybody Hurts from R.E.M. started to play and we slowly started moving. Of course Spotify had to play this song from all of my slow dancing ones. Jimmy took the leading part quite well. Our eyes kept being locked the whole time and I forgot everything around us as it nearly felt like we were flying through the room. We were in our own little world. It was just the two of us losing ourselves in each other's eyes. The song ended and we stood there for a few moments, starring in each other's eyes. I finally snapped back into reality and put some distance between us. I cleared my throat. "Jimmy.. I...", I tried to speak up but I was interrupted immediately. "Keira, I was such an idiot."