Now and Forever - Mark Feehily Fan Fiction [COMPLETED]

Chapter 42 - Totally missing you

Songs of the chapter:
5 Seconds Of Summer - Beside You
5 Seconds Of Summer - The Only Reason
Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here
HomeTown - Roses
Hunter Hayes - Homesick
Hunter Hayes - Where We Left Off
Jesse McCartney - Tell Her
One Direction - Half A Heart
Shawn Mendes - Crazy
Shawn Mendes - Never Be Alone
Taylor Swift - Come Back... Be Here
Taylor Swift - If This Was A Movie
Westlife - Miss You Nights
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Jess' POV
It had been almost a half year since he had gone and everyone had got distant from me, except Katy, Ella, Mia, and Jane.

After we took him to the hospital, he was in coma, long coma, for 3 weeks or a month, or that was what I thought. I had felt very relieved that time that he could survive. I visited him every single day and in the weekend, I stayed the night. It was all just fine until someday I found out nothing in his room. That time I visited him after work, since I couldn't in my lunch break. I had been very busy that day so I decided to visit him before I went home a bit longer. But the view when I entered his room was very jaw-dropping.

He wasn't there. What was there were only empty bed with 12 red roses, a letter, and some keys on it.

I was willing to call him or anyone but I didn't find their numbers. No Mark's, no Shane's, no Kian's, no Nicky's, no Kevin's, no Brian's, and even no Riley's. Only Katy's, Ella's, Mia's, and Jane's that were left. Whoever deleted them, fuck you.

I checked the letter. It was written in very familiar handwritting. Yes, it was his.

Dear Jessie,

Thank you for visiting me every single day. I'm sorry if I bother you with these stuffs but, thank you so much and I'm sorry too I have to leave in this way. I'll just go for a while, Jess, I promise. I promise you I'll come home back to you, right back in your loving arms. I swear I will. I know you'll patiently wait for me. Well, I know this sounds so damn selfish, this is not fair for you at all. I do realize that. But, I have to do this, Jess, I'm sorry I really have to. But don't worry, okay? Like I've written before, I swear I will come home back to you. Once again, I swear I will.

Here are keys of the house and cars. Stay there safely, alright? Stay just like we used to, love. I have to go now.

I love you, Jessica.

Kiss and hug you later,
Mx who loves Jx for now and forever.

What made me absolutely very surprised was he could write. That also meant he had woken up from the coma, right? Or maybe everyone just lied to me that he had been in coma? Who knew that he had not?

But most of all, the most important question was why did he leave? Why did everyone get distant from me? What had I done so he did this to me? Why did no one tell me he had woken up? Why could no one tell me where the hell on Earth was he right now? Why!?

3 words for me; fuck my life.

Shane's POV
Hi it's still me, Shane.

I was now sitting on the couch across Mark and next to Brian in the living room of a flat that Mark rented here in New York. Mark had been living here for almost a half year in order to hide everything out from Jess' knowing. He planned this crazy thing after he woke up from the coma. Jess never found out he had woken up until she found the room was empty, I guessed. Mark really begged all of us, including Ella and her other friends he hadn't met before, to not tell her where he was and why he was here. This was pretty hard for us to keep as a secret since we had to also keep our distance with her. We all wanted to tell her so bad but we couldn't. Thankfully, the lads, including Brian, Kevin, and Riley, had a little bit lighter weight since Mark deleted our numbers from her phone. He didn't delete the girls' numbers because he wanted them to make sure she was alright, though he knew she wouldn't be okay at all.