Now and Forever - Mark Feehily Fan Fiction [COMPLETED]

Chapter 23 - Plan for Paris

Songs of the chapter:

Justin Bieber - Be Alright

Justin Bieber - She Don't Like The Lights

Westlife - Angel's Wings
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Mark's POV

"Once again, tell me, Jess, tell me what matters."

She just kept looking at the ground.

Did I hurt her feelings? But I was just honest. I was telling the truth.

I pulled her into my hug. I missed her so bad but I just couldn't deal with this anymore.

"I'm sorry." I sighed, breathing in her scent. "I'm sorry if my words hurt you. I just don't wanna lose you, Jess. You're the only angel I've gotten in my life."

But did you know what?

She didn't even hug back and what I felt was no warmth. There were just cold and distant feelings. I really didn't expect her to be like this.

"I'm sorry, Jess, please. Please, just, tell me, baby." I hugged her tighter, hoping her to say something.

She still didn't respond. Geez, why did she suddenly became so hard like this? I mean, I just couldn't understand any of this. She became distant, cold, hard at me but sometimes she turned back into my Jess too. This felt wrong, so wrong.

She finally sighed. "It's okay. Do you want something to eat now?"

What!?

"What!?" I pulled away. "You haven't answered my questions, Jess, and now you ask me that? Don't try to get away from all of this!" I became upset. How couldn't I!? I had been patient enough.

"Don't talk to me like that!"

"Why can't I!? You make me, Jess!" I shouted.

"Don't shout at me!" She shouted back.

"How am I supposed to not shout at you, Jess? How? I need your explainations! I need it now! Like, fucking right now and you don't even give a damn word about it, give a damn shit about it!"

"I just care about you, Mark! I concern your condition and your health and now you're asking me like that? Shouting at me like that!? Is this what I get from concerning you? Caring at you!?" I knew she tried to drag us out of the topic but, no. I wouldn't just give it up.

"I don't blame you for caring at me, concerning me! I know you do, Jess, you do. I'm never questioning that! But, don't you just realize you're getting far away from me!? Don't you just, know that!?"

"I'm not getting far away from you!"

"Yes you are!"

"I'm not!"

"You, are!"

"I'm not!"

"Then what do you call it if it's not getting far away!? Getting distant!? We never hang out together again, Jess, even just going to park, our park. We even barely have dinner together!" We even barely gave each other affections, even just simple 'I love you's.

"That's because you're always on tour! You always put your band first! Don't you just realized I'm tired of this kind of life?"

"What!?" Why the heck did she ever think like this!? "After all this time, you think like that!? Big mistake, Jess, because, NO. You are the one I put first, not the band, not me, not even my own fucking life. It's you. And the tour, I've tried my best to go back here everytime I get free times, everytime I get breaks, even just for a day. Why? Because of you, Jess, you. Because you really matter to me.