I'M UNDESERVING...

CONFESSIONS......

“ It's simple, I love him ”,

Wei wuxian blinks a few times on xichen's answer ,

“ Xichen-ge, did I hear you right ? ”, wei wuxian asked calmly with a worried expression.

“ You did . I love wanyin !”, xichen said with a calm smile. Wei wuxian gasps ,

“ Are you mistaking your close friendship with love ? Means you were in seclusion and went through a betrayal and now you suddenly being close to Jiang Cheng which made you delusional about your feelings for him . ”, wei wuxian said , he can't help but worry about both his brother and brother-in-law, what if he is mistaking and ends up hurting both himself and Jiang Cheng.

“ I'm not a-xian. I know where you are getting that ! But trust me, I really love him , it's not my delusion.”, xichen said softly.

“ Xichen-ge, you don't even know Jiang Cheng that deeply now, how can you be so sure about this? And no one is perfect neither I nor Jiang Cheng, you may like him now but what about future? What if you get tired of his nature ? You have no idea how arrogant he can be , he has a foul mouth too , he will make you feel that you matter nothing to him , though he is the one who deeply care and love , but what if because of his words which are just an empty words still  make you chose to leave him ? I know him xichen-ge . PLEASURE OF LOVE LASTS BUT A MOMENT , PAIN OF LOVE LASTS A LIFETIME!! ”, wei wuxian said , concern could be clearly seen on his face . Xichen stare at wei wuxian for few second before sighing,

“ Do you think you knew Jiang Cheng?  If you knew him , why are you both like this ? I know that it's not too long since I met him , but I know him , maybe not fully but atleast better than you !”, xichen said , he didn't mean to say this in a mean way but it feel like it was forced out of his mouth in this way .

“ What do you mean ? What even you know about him ?”, wei wuxian narrow his eyes at xichen's statement. He felt he was getting angry again but it was not his intentions, these emotions were forced on him.

“ I know alot . Many stories which you don't even know, and trust me the story behind his misbehaviour won't make you angry , it will break your heart !!” , xichen said , calmness spread on his forced aggression as he remembers the way Jiang Cheng cried in his arms at Lanling garden .

“ I understand the words you are saying, but I have no idea what you are trying to say . I too know he never intend to hurt anyone but his mouth is really foul . Can you really handle him ? You think him as moon now , but once you get the moon , you will only complain about the scars ..”, wei wuxian too calms down remembering no matter how much Jiang Cheng warns and scold him before making any mischief ,but he was always there with him to receive punishment .

“ But aren't the scars the one which make it more beautiful? I know I sounds like an idiot but I really like him with his flaws . Love is really maddening cause I don't even feel his flaws as flaws , for me he is flawless. And when I look into his eyes , I see pure innocence with no disguise. Just one look at him make my heartbeat rise , I know for the fact that these feelings aren't lies.....”, xichen said smiling . Wei wuxian speechlessly stared at xichen before chuckling,

“ You know you have fallen very badly for my little shidi . Does Jiang Cheng knows ?”, wei wuxian asked grinning.

“ Sometimes I wish , my heart to be as  transparent as his indifference.”, xichen said calmly.

“ You don't have to be discouraged xichen-ge! He growed up with me , obviously he is clueless. Does anyone else know?”, wei wuxian asked still grinning.

“I guess you are the first !”, xichen chuckles. Wei wuxian wanted to smile proudly on this, but he frowned , a forced frown. Seeing his reaction xichen got worried but his expressions made it seem like he was offended ,