I'll always protect you

It's me Carlyboo

“Should we go after him?” Greyson asked me

“Um no, trust me when he’s like that your best off running in the opposite direction and keep on running” I say chuckling slightly

We were sitting out on the bench outside the hospital it was silent between us and not the awkward kind well it’s slightly awkward. I mean we kissed.. We freaking kissed I mean we kissed before sure, but that kiss we shared shortly was just amazing.

Sparks and tingles everywhere I felt when he kissed me even when he touched me.

“You okay Darling?” He asked snapping me out of my thoughts

“Huh? Yeah I’m good” Shivering a bit from the cold I felt something draping over my shoulders and turned to see Greyson putting his hoody over me I smile gratefully

“Thanks” I said

“Welcome darling” he said kissing my cheek causing me to blush

“Your cute when you blush” he said chuckling

“Shut up” I said mumbling causing him to chuckle more

“God I missed this” He said

“Missed what?” I asked

“Missed being able to sit here and make you smile making you blush just the little things in general” he said thoughtfully

I smiled “Yeah I missed it too” I said

“Carly?” he called softly

“Yes?” I whispered as he looked deep in my eyes

“I really really did miss you when you left.. It hurt me so bad” he said his eyes going glassy trying to hold back a tear

“I missed you too.. Greyson can I maybe ask you something?” I said

“Sure” he replied

“Why.. why did you treat me so badly and make fun of me all that time?” I asked, something I’ve always wanted to asked him so many times before and finally I have and whatever the answer is I’ll except it

“Honestly?” he asked looking at me I nodded yes

“Well I umm I remember one time I hurt you so bad you cried it was the first time you cried because I ruined your teddy bear picnic and made fun of that poka dotted dress, though you looked cute in that dress anyway when I saw you running off crying I felt bad so bad I ran after you and heard you take to Annabelle you told her what I did and she told you boys pick on you when they like you and I did and still do like you Carly. But because I was so young and Annabelle said the more boys pick on you the more they like you and I believe her. I bought you that new teddy you wanted so badly but never told you it was me who bought it, you smiled for days and always kept it you never let it go then as I got older you started getting interested in other boys and it made me so mad and jealous I hoped you would look at me like that like you wanted me but you never did so I tried to move on with other girls but they were never you so I took my frustrations out on you by bullying you and making you hurt and cry to prove to you I really liked you but every time you cried I just wanted to kiss away the tears and hold you tightly but I just couldn’t I scared off every guy you ever like or every guy that liked you then when you left I become a miserable fuck, ask your brothers, Seb even Mason I didn’t know when you where coming home if you even were so I become angry at myself for letting you go, at you for leaving so I took my anger out on girls, not violence I slept with them countless times broke many hearts just became a general player and I hate it I really do but I made a promise to myself when you come back I’d make you mine but I failed again I just hurt you and I’m so sorry” he says his eyes never leaving mine.