Some nights I feel empty.
Wala akong maramdaman. Parang namanhid na ang buong katawan ko. Umuwi ako pagkatapos kong tumambay sa cliff. Hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang encounter namin ni Danger sa Endulgence. It scared me.
Dahil parang may alam siya.
And I don't like where that was going. May iba pa akong alaala tungkol sa amin that were not great and wonderful. Every time we crossed paths with each other only added pain in my life. And pain was making me numb. I couldn't feel the pain anymore.
I stare up the ceiling.
So many what ifs rolled inside my mind.
What if I didn't leave that day? What if I stayed? What if we hadn't met? What would my life be without my so called family? What if I was not in pain? What if I die?
What will happen then?
My 19th birthday is coming up.
And so is the end.
I'm not letting anyone stop me anymore. I am not looking for pity. There's nothing that would stop me. I know that this is my decision and I'm tired and I'm empty. I'm numb. Nothingness.
There is nothing left for me.
I can't feel anymore.
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