From Lust To Love (R18+)

CHAPTER 13

KNOX SANDOVAL

I WAS woken up by the consistent loud bangs at my door. I canʼt clearly hear what she was talking about, but it was my Momʼs voice.

    “What are you still sleeping at this time?!” she anxiously stated. “Alam mong apo lang ang hindi ko kayang bilhin gamit ang yaman natin but youʼre letting Devon go?!”

    I just woke up so it took me a few seconds before it sank into my mind. “Sheʼs going?!”

    “Yes, she is now at the airport waiting for her flight kasama ang apo ko! Ang anak mo!” Mom grabbed the collar of my shirt and shook me. “Knox, kailangan mo siyang pigilan kung ʼdi ay habang-buhay nating hindi makikita ang apo ko.”

    So the reason why they do not want me to enter the room is because Devon does not want to see me, and plans to run away with the unborn child. With Denver, my very good friendʼs wealth, without a doubt they can escape the country even if they did it last night. My mind is telling me that it is a good thing, but my heart feels scared and sad.  

    Suddenly, a memory of me and Mom talking about the excitement we felt when we all thought that Elise was pregnant—as she lied so—flashes on my mind. It was one of the happiest feelings ever and also the worst disappointment after we knew she lied.

    A slap on my face brought me back to my senses. When I look at Mom, I see how disappointed, sad and furious she is. She shook her head and walked away, leaving me dumbfounded.

    After a few moments, I walk back and forth inside my room. Thinking about what I should do. Should I let her go? What if that child was really mine? 

    Deep inside I knew I wanted to have a child I can call my own. But I decided to hide and not think about it anymore after I found out about my wife's infertility. I donʼt want her to feel that she lacks something, and that I am disappointed in marrying her.

    Kapag hindi ko pipigilang umalis si Devon, hindi ko na makikita ang bata kung sakaling anak ko nga ito. Pero kapag pipigilan ko siya sa pag-alis, paano kapag nalaman ni Elise? Ano ang magiging dulot nito sa aming dalawa? 

    I donʼt know how, but suddenly, my late brotherʼs voice—when we were talking seriously back then—echoed in my mind, “Knox, in making a now or never decision, donʼt stress yourself thinking about the past because it should be left behind. Donʼt overthink about the future, because you still have the time to think about it. What matters the most is what is going to happen now. Always choose what will make you happy.”

DEVON GARCIA

KANINA pa dapat ang flight namin but it was delayed and rescheduled. By now, may two hours pa kami bago ang new schedule ng flight.

    “Bakla, sigurado ka na ba sa desisyon mong ʼto?” Hinawakan niya ng mahigpit ang kamay mo. Nang tingnan ko ang mukha niya ay naiiyak na siya.

    “Sis, alam kong padalos-dalos ang desisyon kong ʼto, pero hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang puwedeng mangyari sa amin ng anak ko with Knox around,” sagot ko. Alam kong sobrang concerned lang si Bambie sa akin at hindi ko mapigilang maluha dahil doon.

    “Bakla, sobrang layo ng Switzerland,” bumagsak na ang kanina pa niya pinipigilang mga luha, “tapos ang mahal pa roon.”

    “Donʼt worry about her,” boses ni Denver. “Hindi ko sila pababayaang mag-ina.”

    Napatingin ako sa kinaroroonan ni Denver. May dala-dala na itong pagkain kagaya ng sinabi niya na aalis muna siya at bibili ng makakain namin. Before I met him, it was only Bambie who cares for me like weʼre related by blood. Ngayon, dalawa na sila ni Denver ang meron ako.