KNOX SANDOVAL
NERVOUSNESS and anxiousness is killing me as I wait outside the emergency room of the hospital. I canʼt seem to steady myself and so I sat down in the chair. This is causing me so much pain. What happened knocked me sideways.
People who passes by were looking at me but I donʼt give a f*ck. I can feel the tears running down my cheeks. I can never forgive myself if something bad happens to them.
“Knox,” Elise called out my name. My gaze was lowered and I could see her shoes. That means she is just right in front of me.
I stood up and looked her in the eye. I gave her the coldest stare she will ever receive in her entire life.
“I d-didnʼt,” her voice cracked, “expect this outcome.”
In a cold tone, holding back all of my emotions, I responded, “You planned everything.”
“Y-Yes. I just want her out of our life. I didnʼt mean to—”
This is the very first time I felt anger towards her and it was so deep that I nearly slapped her.
She covered her face. Shocked with what I did. And then, I saw how her tears streamed down her face.
“Get the hell out of here,” I said with closed eyes, trying to calm myself.
“Knox, alam kong napipilitan ka lang to divorce me kaya ko ginawa ʼto.” She held my shoulders and cupped my face. “I knew how much you love me.”
I held both of her hands and pushed her. Strong enough to create a distance between the two of us. “I filed a divorce agreement because it is what my heart wanted to do.”
“N-no, thatʼs not true!” She shook her head. “It is your Mom who told you to do so! You love the most, Knox! We both knew that! ”
“I loved you, Elise,” I corrected her. “It is all in the past.”
Her knees tremble that causes her to fall on the floor, kneeling in front of me. “H-how could you do this to me?”
I felt an extreme conscience as I witnessed her state as of the moment. But what I said was true. “What happened between Devon and I, was a night of mistakes, and I am very sorry to you for that. But let me ask you some questions…
“Where are you when I need you the most? When the company faces troubles, where are you? When I need someone to lean on, where are you? During my brotherʼs death anniversary and my birthday, where are you?
“Not only did Devon give me a son. She gave me comfort and assistance that a wife should offer her husband. I can feel that she cares for me. I feel loved when I am with her. I regretted that I just realized all of this the day you arrived. I am sorry but on that day, I felt—”
“Stop!” she cried her heart out. “P-please stop!”
She remained kneeling on the floor, so I held her shoulders and lifted her up. I sighed and caressed her shoulders. “After you sign the divorce agreement, we wonʼt see each other again.”
DEVON GARCIA
NAGISING ako sa isang hindi pamilyar na kwarto at nananakit ang buong katawan ko. Nahihilo rin ako kaya napahawak ako sa ulo ko.
Biglang may humawak sa kamay ko at nang tingnan ko kung sino ay si Bambie pala ito. “Bes, kumusta ang pakiramdam mo?” tanong niya sa akin.
Sasagot na sana ako pero biglang may sumingit at sinabing, “Maʼam, huwag po muna kayo masyadong gumalaw, kakaraspa lang ko lang saʼyo kahapon.”
“H-ha?! Anong ibig mong sabihin?!”
Pilit kong inalala kung ano ang nangyari ngunit walang pumapasok sa utak ko. Sa halip ay napansin kong marami akong benda sa iba't ibang parte ng katawan ko.
“Bes…” naiiyak na sambit ni Bambie.
Nakaramdam ako ng labis na kaba na lahat ng pananakit ng katawan na nararamdaman ko kanina ay tila nawala.
“Ano?! Magsalita ka! Anong nangyari?!”
“You miraculously survived the accident, but your baby didnʼt make it,” sabi ng doctor. Narinig ko ang kanʼyang pagbuntong hininga bago siya nagsalitang muli, “I am sorry, pero naipit ng husto ang tiyan mo. We tried everything we could pero hindi na tumitibok ang puso ng baby mo noong dinala ka rito sa hospital.”
Accident… Napabalikwas ako sa kama ng maalala ko ng nangyari. Isa-isang pumasok sa isip ko lahat-lahat, mula sa party hanggang sa pagkabangga ng minamaneho kong sasakyan.
“No!” sigaw ko ng malakas. “Hindi totoo ʼyan!”
“Bes, kumalma ka lang,” umiiyak na sabi ni Bambie ʼtsaka niya ako niyakap.
Humiyaw ako sa abot ng lakas na kaya ko. Ramdam kong nanunuyo na ang lalamunan ko pero ʼdi ko pa rin kayang pigilan ang sarili ko. Sobrang sakit sa pakiramdam. Sobra-sobra na para akong sinasaksak ng paulit-ulit.
“Ang a-anak ko! Ibalik ninyo sa akin ang anak ko!”
Malakas na bumukas ang pinto at dinig ko ang mga yabag ng mga taong papasok sa silid na ito.
“Devon, please calm down.”
Tiningnan ko si Knox na katatapos lang magsalita. Ang hinagpis na nararamdaman ko ay nahaluan ng labis na galit. Ramdam ko ang panginginig ng buong katawan ko.
“Anong ginawa mo rito?! Hayop ka, Knox! Hayop ka!”
Umalis ako mula sa pagkakayakap sa akin ni Bambie at sinubukang tumayo para sugurin si Knox ngunit kaagad akong pinigilan ng kaibigan ko at ng doctor! Maya-maya lang ay naramdaman ko na may tinusok sila sa kamay ko at ʼdi nagtagal ay mabilis na nandilim ang paningin ko.
“Hinding-hindi kita mapapatawad,” sambit ko bago ako tuluyang nawalan ng malay.
ISANG BUWAN na ang lumipas at narito ako ngayon sa airport. I am waiting for the announcement to board the plane.
“Bakla, sigurado ka na ba sa plano mong ʼto?”
Tumango naman ako kay Bambie. “Ito lang ang naiisip kong paraan.”
Napatingin ako kay Denver ng magtanong ito, “Are you sure you donʼt want us to go with you?”
Ngumiti ako sa kanʼya. “Isang buwan lang naman akong mag-isa roon, ʼdi ba?”
Tumango naman siya na may kasamang ngiti. “Oo naman, susunod kaagad ako kapag hindi na ako busy.”
“At wala na naman kayong balak isama ako, ah?” si Bambie na kunwari ay nagtatampo.
Pagkatapos naming magtawanan ay biglang nagtanong si Bambie, “Hindi mo ba talaga kakausapin si Knox bago ka umalis?”
“Sis, namam… ʼDi ba sinabi ko sa ʼyo na ayaw ko nang marinig ulit ang pangalang ʼyan?”
“Oo na, hindi na,” pagsuko nito.
Pagkatapos kong marinig ang announcement na puwede na kaming mga pasahero mag-board sa eroplano ay tumayo na ako. Nang tingnan ko si Bambie, umiiyak ito kaya niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. Ganoʼn din ang ginawa ko kay Denver, bago ko tinalikuran ang lahat.
I learned a lot with this experience. Every temptation comes with a great consequence. What lies ahead is never good when what you did in the first place isnʼt right. Learn to avoid temptations. But if you happen to give into it, try to correct it as soon as possible. Or else, karma will knock you sideways.
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