"My MaRiLyn..."

51.

Dumped. What is my purpose of life now? It's been three days after the party and I've been depressed. I am trying to stay strong but what Is life if you can't have what makes you whole? What is the purpose of living if you can't make meaning out of it? Marilyn broke my heart but it's not really over. She has to tell me why elaborately. We can't just end our relationship just like that.

I gave her all of me and so did she. We share something special. Is she telling me the sex meant nothing to her? Is she telling me that every time we spent our days together,she thought about how to rebuild a life with Richard and not build something established with me?

You can't take me down Marilyn and I won't allow you to act like we didn't share something divine and sacred. Don't let me kill somebody because I will. You leaving me will be like sharp glass penetrating through my dark heart and it hurts. Losing you to Richard will be something I won't allow. Actually,I don't allow it.

Just give me solid proof reasons as to why we should end our relationship. I need to know these answers and find my way back to you again. Ciara Is happy again and she'll have to move out so that you,My MaRiLyn, spend your days with me. I sketched you into existence. I created you and made you whole when I saw no hope in my eyes to ever love again.

I saw you in front of me before I could touch you and now that I did,I won't let you go. Not like this,not never.

Timothy Zolanski is not crazy,he is kind and giving. I will not turn back into something I'm not. I don't want to hurt you,Marilyn nor do I want to hurt anybody you love and that also includes me. I need answers.
I know I've got issues and one of them is how bad I need you. Fix me like I fixed you and love me back like I always have. Don't turn me into a monster,Marilyn because I love you.

I'm willing to shed blood for you and I'm willing to save you from the world,My love. I am willing to risk it all for you. Just let me in again. Tell me we belong together just like you did when we shared souls with each other.

Don't make an enemy out of me. I don't want your creation to be the reason to destroy you.