"My MaRiLyn..."

62.

Morning has been something magical and the magic is Ciara. We had fun cleaning the house and making breakfast together without any awkwardness between the two of us. There is something so special about Ciara and I can see it clearly but its hard to point it out. I'm glad I'm feeling happy again ,I guess. I'm trying to be happy.

But I've got a lot to do before I determine whether to leave this neighbourhood after my mission is over or continue my stay with either Ciara,Marilyn or somebody else. For now I just want to seek happiness. It's all I want.

Here I am cuddling with Ciara while watching our favourite series,"The walking dead." There is a silence we don't find awkward because we are aiming to be  something special.

Ciara then sits up straight and looks at me,

"Turn off the tv," she tells me and I look at her not ready to do so.

"But we're about to watch the ending," I tell her and she just looks at me with a straight face on waiting for me to do what she's said.

I deeply sigh and grab the remote to switch off the tv. I look at her with my full attention.

"Whats up?"

"There is something I have always wanted to tell you ever since but I didn't know how to say it or when to say it," she tells me looking quite nervous.

I fix my posture and sit up well focused and ready to hear what she's got to say.

"Go ahead and tell me,"  I encourage her and she nervously lightly smiles.

"I-I,uhgosh,how to say this," she says looking emotional now and I definitely assume she's really serious about what she's about to say.

I hold her hand to assure her that all is well and she exhales and inhales.

"Timothy fucking Zolanski,I love you," she confidently tells me and I'm in awe that I don't know what to say.

My heart is beating real fast. I'm not ready to start a relationship. Ciara notices I'm tense.

"I don't expect you to say anything actually. I just want to let you know. I love you and I don't really see us as just friends," she says again and I slowly nod affirming.

"I-I understand,Cece. You're not wrong to tell me whatever you're feeling," I respond making her feel better.

"Let's just take it slow because I like you too," I tell her and she has a smile on her face she feels it's real but it isn't. She looks sad.

"Are you okay? Is it the take it slow thing?" I ask worried.

"No,I'm not sad. It's just that I'm happy," she says with tears rolling down her face now.

She wipes them and smiles perfectly at me.

"We'll take it slow," she says to me and I smile at her. I caress her right cheek a and I lean in to kiss her.

"I'll take care of you," I let Ciara know and she embraces me and continues to cry. Her sob is heavy and I can hear pain in her voice.

"Don't let me go just like Miss Fiona did. I'm alone," she cries out on my shoulder and I feel terrible.

I am the only person she relies on and I hold her close to me consoling her.

"I won't let go. I won't let go,okay?" I tell Ciara and she nods in affirmation.

I won't let go.