"My MaRiLyn..."

63.

Ciara and I are walking to the store with our hands clasped so tight. We are talking and laughing about how everybody in this neighbourhood is so "perfect".

It's been two days after the emotional conversation Ciara and I encountered and its been three or four days after Zoes murder.

"What do you want to eat?" Ciara asks me and I smile at her.

"Vegetables," I tell her and she laughs.

"What?" I ask with a chuckle.

"It's always vegetables. Why won't you ever eat meat?" She asks.

Well,baby girl,I'm a serial killer. I've seen a lot of blood and cut up a lot of skin that it's hard to eat meat.

"I'm vegetarian that's why I don't eat meat,Cece," I reply and she smiles at me.

"I'll make you something special,okay?"

"Okay," I say to her and we continue walking to the store.

We pass by Richard and Marilyn's house and there are two cop cars parked outside their yard. Four police officers are standing outside having a conversation about whatever their case is.

I know they are here to look for Zoe. I get anxious immediately I start to trace back my steps to remember if I left any clues and if Madison and Reese didn't say anything.

"What now? Why are the cops by the neighbourhoods most perfect couples house?" Ciara asks me and I sigh.

"I don't know. It looks pretty serious though," I reply and Ciara responds with a hum.

"I hope everything is alright," Ciara adds on.

"I hope it is," I reply with prayer being said in my heart for God to save me just this one time.

"Let's hurry up and get back home in time," Ciara says and we fasten up our paces.

God should save me and not let me drown. If he understands why I'm doing this he will save my ass. I don't want to go to prison for the rest of my life. I left my dark past behind but eventually brought it with me and it started to show because of Marilyn.

I would have gone to prison but I have been saved by doctors who assumed I was crazy. I've been in and out of Mental Asylums just pretending to be insane when in the actual sense I'm perfectly fine. I showed I was doing okay and they let me go and 10 years later, I find myself here looking for a better life that I'm about to ruin because of Marilyn again.

I don't want to perish before my time and I don't want to let Ciara down. I'm the only person here for her that's why I'll make sure I work carefully.