"My MaRiLyn..."

69.

I'm laying in bed with Ciara who is holding onto me as she is fast asleep whilst I'm not. I'm busy thinking about what happened earlier.

Marilyn doesn't want to let go but she told me that she moved on and that her and Richard are trying to be happy for once.

She used me and I'm guessing she's trying to use me again. I also think she is coming back to her senses after realising that breaking up with me wasn't the best option to pick and now she wants to mend her ways with me.

I accept her apology if she's begging me to forgive her and the only way she could ask for forgiveness Is through the sex.

I don't know! But all I know is I sketched her into existence and she is my creation who was waiting for me to find her but she found me.

She knows I'm the missing piece to her jigsaw puzzled game called 'life'. I can't just give up on her no matter how hard I'm trying to. Ciara Is a great person but she's a distraction. She's trying to make me feel bad for choosing Marilyn over her.

I am meant to be with Marilyn because she is mine and no matter how many images of Zoe I see,that won't stop me from doing what I've got to do. And thinking of distractions,the twins are getting on my nerves. Mostly,that Madison girl.

She gives me anxiety but not to worry,I will take good care of her and her sister. Despite Marilyn convincing the girls to not say a word to their father about me and their mother,I still have a feeling that soon enough they shall spread the word.

And not only will they say Marilyn and I are having sex,they'll say I am 'Fivio'.

Gladly,Mari didn't say anything to them about what my real name is but still,I feel like this is a chance for me to prove to Marilyn that we are meant to be.

Letting go of her right now would be the death of me.

Marilyn and I are going to have fun while we can but now,I need to get rid of distractions,distractions.