Boo'd Up (Kendrick Lamar love story)

Here's The Truth

"Kay, what do you want for lunch?," my assistant, Paisley, asked me.

"Ummm where you going?"

She smiled," You tell me."

I've grown to love this girl. Paisley is from Oakland and is my age. She's a few months older than me. Having her around doesn't feel like work, more like we're friends. This is her first time being an assistant which is perfect because I'm a up and coming personality.

Everybody has to start somewhere.

I got invited to the BET Awards as a interviewer and a presenter so I'm getting ready at a hotel nearby the Nokia Theatre. I hired a glam team for the occasion because I'm not in the mood to deal with my hair and face. My hair is still a thick mess and my face is super dry. I've had to switch up skincare.

This baby girl needs to come out because mama tired.

"Subway, maybe. I'll get the usual, I guess."

"Are you sure?," she asked, chuckling.

"No but I'll take it."

She stared at me," I'll get you Chick-fil A."

She left the room, I shrugged. As she was leaving, my manager, Stacey, came in the room.

"Oooo I'm in love with your hair, girl. I'm glad you decided to go lighter," Stacey said.

I smiled," Me too. I needed a change."

I recently decided to go lighter on my hair color and go sandy brown. I love it and it's different. It's even prettier curly but my hair is more bearable straightened. I might maintain this color for awhile but I also said the same about my red hair.

But my new hair color was really to match my gown for the night. Golden Goddess, that's the mood I set for myself.

My mind was elsewhere though. Kendrick was back in town and I've been avoiding him. I guess you can say we're on a break, I don't know. After that night we argued, he's tried to reach out to me. In response, it was either nothing or me TEXTING him something relating to the baby like doctor visits, the nursery or the baby shower.

On his birthday, he was mislead into thinking I was contacting him to work things out but it was Gigi using my phone to FaceTime him and tell him Happy Birthday. After a good hour of talking Gigi, he wanted to talk to me but when Gianna handed me the phone, I hung up.

I know it was his birthday but I already told him Happy Birthday and I sent him his gifts which was some flowers, a gold Rolex, diamond encrusted cross necklace & earring set. He'll be fine.

I've been staying at my parents' house like he told me to. I didn't ask Stacey to get me security team because I don't think I need it. I'm popular but not that popular.

I didn't tell my parents exactly what happened between Kendrick and I, just that we had a disagreement and decided to take a break. I haven't been staying at our place so when Kendrick came home and noticed half of my things gone, he stayed blowing up my phone as if we both ain't busy because he thought I was leaving him.

As far as I know, we're still together but I just don't want to be bothered with him.

Kendrick also confronted Evon. He didn't kick her off the tour but she chose to leave. When she came home, she gave me more tea about Kendrick.

I don't feel it in my heart but I think he was cheating. An anonymous text was sent to me last week of him dancing and kissing on another girl. I don't know if it was before or after our argument but I knew it was recent because he was wearing his K necklace I got him for his last birthday, it pissed me off to no ends. That's why I'm not even bothering trying to reach out to him.