The Psychopath | 18+

12. Another Side of the spectrum

~Death is inevitable, a necessity that we are afraid of~

Romana's POV (warning ⚠️ Mentions of sui@ide and self harm)
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"I thought I could get it done before you came back.. well I did actually" he chuckled, I glared at him, at his failed attempt of a joke.

"How many times have you tried to do this!?" I whisper yelled, throat tender from all the shouting.

He sighed, closing his lids and lean back "Long enough to know that some higher power wants me here for whatever reason" I stared at him like he had grown two heads.

"Why?" I whispered, almost at the verge of crying.

"Why not?" He countered, I let out a harsh breath and helped myself up off the floor.

"Your so aggravating" his eyebrows perked up in clear confusion.

"I wasn't aware that I was aggravating" he said, were we really having this conversation right now! After he just-almost un-alived himself.

"Why do you care Ms. Feretti?" He asked looking at me with curiosity, his hazel eyes dead.

I sighed looking away as a single tear fell "it's not a matter of why I care Mr. Eros, I don't think anybody wants to witness someone hurting themselves then stand by and do nothing"

"Is that why your crying?" He asked, I froze up at the the revelation of being caught, I felt vulnerable and I didn't like it.

I aggressively wiped the stupid tear away "let's just get you out of here".

He didn't protest as I helped him up off the floor, his massive frame towered over me and I realized he really didn't need my help but I inclined to offer it anyway.

"How did your meeting go?" He asked.

"Fine" I said, through gritted teeth. I still couldn't comprehend how he could be having such a casual conversation.

"Don't get upset over me Romana, I'm just another man who doesn't want to be here" he said, I slowly looked up at him an saw nothing, his eyes were void of all emotions yet he was sane.

"Don't you care about other people's feeling" I choked, not realizing the tears that started to fall. He reached up and wiped it away.

"No...." Was all he said, my inner turmoil was taking over and I was fighting hard to not have a breakdown, why did I care so much, he's a stranger. My voice echoed in my head wanting to comfort me, Maybe it was too close to home.

"Death is inevitable Romana and it's selfish of us to think that we can do anything to stop it" his words hit me like a brick and I couldn't help but cry out.

"Shouldn't it be natural though?" I managed to get out "shouldn't it be peaceful?".

He looked away "you and I both know that's not reality and the sooner you accept it, the easier it will be for you" I remained silent blank as to what I wanted to say.

We managed to get out of the wet place and into his bedroom, where he stood looking at me with an unknown expression.

"I lost my parents in a car crash..." I started staring down at the floor.

"It was supposed to be a good night, we planned it for weeks.... I put on my best outfit and a pair of earrings my father had gifted me for my birthday"

I dug my nail into my palm to help ease the pain of the not so distant memory, I don't even know why I was telling him this.

"My mother looked so beautiful, happy, Alive. We drove at a normal speed down the highway. The road was even clearer than usual

Perfect night out. Then... Out of nowhere everything just started moving slow, the car flipped atleast three times in the air before toppling over, landing straight on its back, everything was wrecked and the man responsible just sped away"

I looked up at him, waiting for something but he just stared not saying anything or showing any emotions and I it made me angry.

"I couldn't do anything!" I yelled walking up to him "they died, burning screaming and I couldn't do shit! I was weak!"

I poked his chest "And I'd be damn if I made that happen again!" My breathing was erratic and hot tears streamed down the sides of my face.

With a look of nothing, he reached out and pulled me in for the lightest and softest kiss, a peck that held so much meaning behind it, well at least for me.

He pulled back eyes searching mine, for what? I had no idea.

"I am thankful for your pity Romana" he whispered, I was taken aback. A slap across the face some would call it then he continued only driving more swords into my already fragile heart.

"But I don't need it" I shrugged from his grasp, hurt and angry.

"Fuck you... Fuck you Eros Des'aire" I spat, I can't believe that after spewing my heart out, telling him a very heart wrenching story of mine and reliving that horror that, that was all he had to say.

He didn't even seem fazed from my outburst.

"Your not the first and you won't be the last" I gasp and nodded in disbelief, I started walking away, hot on my own heels, then his voice sounded stopping me in my tracks.

"Romana" his voice was low, he held me there unmoving and that same familiar chill took over the air.

"I told you, you had no idea what you were getting yourself into... Save yourself, this is my last and only warning... Do your job and go home" I didn't answer, didn't react. I just walked away like the weak girl I am, the one that runs away from everything.

Why did this man have to affect me so much, why did I have to care and end up hurting myself.

Was it too much to ask!? I ran to my room and immediately burst out into tears as the door closed behind me.

Was it always gonna be like this, lonely even when your the one reaching out. Why did everyone have to die and leave their loved ones?

Eros was right, it selfish to think yourself capable enough to stop the inevitable or maybe I was just asking too much of a psychopath.

I wouldn't give up though, I would save somebody, help them from their misery and fulfill my mission on this earth.

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Too soon? I'm sorry for such raw emotions but if Romana is to proceed she needs to know what she is getting herself into. Eros doesn't need anyone's belief and opinions other than his own, hence the term psychopath and is why he's so hard on her. He has no empathy towards her and her feelings and she having such strong emotions towards him, just contradict things.

This is a fictional book however, so he will get better.

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