𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 ~ 𝒎𝒊𝒌𝒆𝒚 𝒙 𝒋𝒆𝒏𝒏𝒂

𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 ♥

A/N: so, as I wrote this one, I was listening to "bags" by clairo and OMG listen to it as you read this one, it makes for a much better experience <3

𝐜 𝐚 𝐦 𝐢 𝐥 𝐚 ' 𝐬  𝐩 𝐨 𝐯 🎬

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I jolted awake to Cassie's audible crying, to lean over and see that she was still asleep. I leaned over and saw that the time was 3:34 on Cassie's gray alarm clock.

"Cassie, it's okay, wake up." I said softly, moving some hair away from her face. Her only response was to continue crying and her eyes stayed closed.

My heart broke at the sight. I've never seen Cassie this way before, hysterically crying and visibly destressed. My mom got like this once. 

After my dad and mom got in a fight one day, my mom swung my door open and fell to the floor in sobs. When my mom was pregnant with Wyatt, our relationship was significantly close, and she meant the world to me.

I remember her screaming- crying as I held her in my arms. It was the most upset I had ever seen her. 

Before Wyatt, I couldn't help but see how incredibly lively and loving she was. I don't blame Wyatt; I don't know who to blame, but I do know that blame wouldn't give me the peace I wanted. 

Working to never be like neither of them gave me the peace I deserved.

"I'm right here, you're okay, I promise." I tried to assure, shaking her awake slightly as her eyes flew open, panting heavily.

"Millie!" She said breathlessly, quickly sitting up, tears still streaming down her face as her eyes met mine.

"I got you, it's okay, we're okay." I whispered calmly, pulling her into my arms as she continued to sob.

"Stay with me! Please stay!" She barely choked out, hyperventilating as her tears marked her light pink comforter.

"I'm not going anywhere, look at me, I'm here. I won't leave you." 

And I'd like to think that it was that re-assurance that stopped the sobs at a halt. She looked up at me as I looked down to her, tears staining her face before I wiped them away.

"I'm sorry." She said, her voice breaking as she spoke, still clinging to me as we we're sat in the bed.

"No, don't apologize, it's okay. I'm not leaving you Cassie." I said, running my hands up and down her back as her head laid in my lap. 

A tear fell from my eye and onto the blanket we had wrapped ourselves in.

For the remainder of the night, I helped Cassie as her cries softened into hushed breaths. She stayed in my arms as I ran my fingers through her hair until she fell asleep.

Me on the other hand, I didn't get another second of sleep, as I focused each one on calming her down.

"I love you so much." I whispered as I held one of her hands in my own.

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I moved her out of my lap around 7:30, covering her back up with blankets as it was extremely cold out. My feet touched the cold floor as I walked to the bathroom to get ready, putting one of the t-shirts I keep in my drawer in Cassie's bathroom.

Cassie insisted that I start keeping a few days' worth of clothes at her house so that I wouldn't have to steal hers as much, but that rarely stops me.

I brushed my teeth and washed my face before running downstairs and saying good morning to Laura.