MY ALPHA, MY OLIVIA

CHAPTER 18- LIKE? NOWAY!

Derek's pov

Thank God! Olivia was alright. Beside some small injuries on her lips and ankle, she was perfectly fine. When i heard about the fight all i could think about was Olivia. My heart was beating fast thinking about the possibilities of she getting hurt.

It was the first time i saw a girl and boy fight each other at the public trying to kill each other. How can a boy fight with a girl?. Don't misunderstand me. I know about the gender equalities. Anyone can fight with whoever they want.

But don't you think ,it was fucking insane. What they both did was totally absurd. They both should have talked and solved the problem effectively instead of acting so immature and childish. Anyway i am not cool with violence but don't underestimate me, if it is necessary i won't hesitate to give a punch too. I usually avoid violences cause it won't solve any problems but instead it only create problems.

"Dude, are you listening to me or not?" Blake ask annoyed, bringing me out of the trace.

After i got the tutoring job, i couldn't hangout with Blake, so today we decided to come over to his house and chill. He was sitting on the couch and i was lying beside him after tired of playing video games the hundred times.

"Sorry, what were you saying?"

"What happened to you man?. Why are you always space out nowadays?" He asks concerned. For a moment I thought about asking him about what is troubling me.

"Blake, i wanted to ask you about something. Actually it's not for me but for one of my friend...." I says trailing off.

" Friend? Which friend are you talking about?. I know almost all of your friends." He asks raising his eyebrow. Shit! What am I gonna say now?. He knows me too well.

" You don't know this one. We recently become friends, okay!" I says sternly looking away from him.

"Okay, carry on. What's with your new friend then?" He asks eating some snacks.

"It's actually about his crush. He asked me about some advices but I think you know more about these stuffs than me, You know?. I don't have any much experience in these things..so.." I says glancing at him. Blake looked but nodded at me suspiciously before concentrating again to his snacks.

" Okay, listen. So this friend of mine had a crush on someone before. He thought he liked that person very much but lately he is feeling some strange feeling towards another person. He don't know what going on anymore and what's his real feelings." I paused watching his reaction for what i said.

"So you are saying that the friend of yours are in confusion right now that who he really likes?" He asks for confirmation.

"Yeah, somewhat like that." I nodded.

"So can you say more about what do you feel when you look at the first person?" He asks turning to me.

"Mm.. she is okay,i think. She helped me a lot at first and i can talk to her about anything that concerning me. She is kinda cool." I says thinking after a moment recalling how i felt when i am with sarah.

"Okay, then tell me about the other one, the one who is making him confusion." Blake says rubbing his chin looks like he is in a long thought. I thought about Olivia for a second. I felt some pleasent feeling building up in my chest because of her thought. How do I start?.

"What should I say about her?. Actually we befriended recently but i feels like i have known her for too long. At first i thought she was some rude , arrogant, bratty rich kid but when i knew more about her, i feel like she was total opposite of what i was thought about her. She is sensible..., kind...., nice....I don't know what to say.." I paused for a moment to think about how do I felt with Olivia,before continuing.

" I felt most comfortable around her. I don't know what it is but something about her makes me wants to stay around her constantly. I like how she looks away whenever i catch her checking me out. The way she trying to act cute always infront of me, the way she smile at me. Everything... Everything about her makes my heart to beat faster that it could explode in any second. Sh-"

"Derek, Enough dude!. I think you like her. I could say from your looks ,you like her so much. You couldn't even stop talking about her. And what's with that smile?. You were smiling like an idiot the whole time while talking about that person." Blake said holding my shoulder firmly making me aware of what I was saying.

"What did you say? Like?. Noway!" I says instantly. Impossible! How can I like Olivia?.

" What i said is the truth and for the first person i think she looks more like a friend than a crush. Maybe you are grateful of her for helping you and other stuff and get confused that you like her. I think she can be a good friend of yours but the second is the real one who you likes. The way you talking about her ,makes the sence." Blake says placing the snacks on the table and turning to me with a creepy smile. I sat there like a statue.

" So tell me man, who is that lucky girl, who gets your heart?" He says with a creepy smile but i was having a panic .

"What are you saying Blake?. I told you, it was for my friend." I says gulping. It was quite difficult to hide things from Blake. He can read me like an open book.

" Don't lie, Derek!. I know you from my childhood. Tell me man, i won't judge you." He says pressuring me. It was not like i don't want to hide things from him but first i couldn't even digest what he said properly by myself. How can my interest suddenly changed from Sarah to Olivia?. Is it possible?.

" I am get going. Let's talk about it later." I says taking my things while rushing outside.

"Derek. Don't think you can hide it from me so long." I heard Blake shout from behind.

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I stopped my car. I don't know how far i drived .It was pretty late at night. I was in a total mess. I walked out to hit by a cool breeze of wind.

I know there is some point in what Blake said earlier and i wasn't a kid to notice it by myself. I know there was some tensions going on between me and Olivia and we could have kissed two times in a row as if Aaron and Riya didn't interrupted us earlier. It was obvious but i don't wanted to believe that.

I looked at my phone hearing a ding sound. It was a massage from Olivia. A smile formed in my lips looking at that. I began to calm myself. Her thoughts makes my heart to skip a beat.

Olivia
Are you busy, right now?
Text me when you are free.

"The fuck! I really like Olivia jane" i shouted loudly in the darkness of night. I laughed for some moment at nothing. I looked up to see the moon was shining brightly without any care of the world. It was beautiful and it made me to think the beautiful smile of Olivia.

It was true that i always felt something with Olivia but i always thought she was out of reach. She was school's beauty and everyone wants to be with her and i am a nothing when i compared to her. I am not a jock, not a captain of any sports team, not a bad boy, i was a no one, aside from my good grades and well at studying.

It will be a fucking joke if i say i wanted to be with her. I had nothing to give her other than my poverty. I wants to laugh at myself for being this pathetic. How can I desire a school beauty as my girlfriend?. She maybe laugh at me if i ever said that i like her. I don't want to loose her because of this fucking feeling of mine. I was grateful to have Olivia as a friend atleast. I shouldn't wish for more.

FUCK MY LIFE!.